Locked out of Heaven

[knox]

EPISODE I

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Back to back seasons. What am I doing? I am beyond nervous as we get ready to start this final season of Good VS Evil.

Coming in, I know I have a huge target on my back because most of the alumni don't really care for me. They all bashed me super hardcore during the season in the Alumni Lounge, so I am coming in somewhat guarded.

My strategy? Charm the fuck out of all of them and make them think that I am someone they can easily use. Make it a point for them to know I have no ties whatsoever.

My main problem? Freakin' Faith. She ran her mouth so much pre-game about my ties with Gloria and etc, that people might make me a target. I am beyond pissed that that was allowed to happen, since she is not even playing, and she is trying to make targets on people. I mean, who does that?!

Also, on a side note. Who are the Alumni that need permission to view confessionals? I'm not sure how to go through with that, one thing is certain though, Faith cannot be anywhere close to my things. She already cheated, I'm not gonna let her ruin my whole game because she is butt-hurt she sucked last season.

Anyways, I am meeting my tribe right now. So far it has only been the girls. They are all awesome so far, I am really enjoying them. I can see myself working with most of them, hopefully we can win tonight so that I don't have to worry since I wasn't around for the challenge.

Maybe this time around I should try to get a Pimp & Hoes alliance as opposed to getting an All-Bro Brawl going on. Then again I have not met Luca or Perry and I like all the girls, so... maybe it will change once I meet the bros. We will see, I suppose...

[knox]

Also, just out of curiosity. How do you feel about Video Confessionals?
Sometimes I don't feel like typing a novel

[knox]

EPISODE I

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We lost the challenge... Goddammit. I was not around at all, so I am clearly in a world of danger. I mean, it is pretty obvious tonight it's going to be either me or Emily, point blank.

For me, both options suck because I truly like Emily, and the other option is myself. We are both social players, and she is a challenge queen. In comparison, my challenge abilities are less than sub-par, so that worries me. And with all the connections that she probably has I am worried I will be an easy target.

Then again, I have NO connections, so people might see me as an easy vote with them. And I am loyal, so maybe they will try to wrap me up in an alliance so that I stick with them for good.

Ellen and Hannah both say they don't want to vote me out, neither does Emily but we both understand that as of right now we have no other options. I hope that they are all being honest and I don't end going home, blindsided, during the first vote. Then again, how much of a blindside can it be if I know I'm in danger?

If it was up to me, the person who would go home would be Perry. He is extremely hard to talk to and I don't find him funny. I don't know if he is just trolling me personally, or if he is this way to people in general, but either way I am not amused at all. This is a social game, and with me has has zero game so far.

I wonder if there is a way I can push the vote into him, somehow. I know Emily would probably be down, but what about everyone else? I think the key is Ellen, she is clearly the reigning queen so I need to make sure she knows I can be a loyal soldier to her Royal Army...

[knox]

EPISODE I

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Holy fuck, who is ready for a switcharoo? I know I am!

Well, here is the thing. It looks like your boy Knox is fully safe and completely out of the woods. But so much shit has been going down, its insane, and exciting and it reminds me why I love AllStars games so much.

But before I get into that, let me compliment myself into being that person that everyone wants to open up for strategy. So far everyone has approached me to talk game, for the most part or at least they don't mind discussing it with me, which is a huge step up from last game. My social game this time around is on fire!

Anyways, earlier today it was pretty much said that Emily will go home because I am so adorable and they all love me. Then, I was talking to Hannah and we decided Emily > Perry, so we decided to approach Selena and she said she would do whatever. So, as Hannah is approaching Ellen about swapping the vote, cause lets be real no one can do anything without Queen Ellen's seal of approval.

Now out of nowhere Perry approaches me and wants to team up with Emily and Selena and vote out Luca, because he has ties with Queen Ellen and Hannah and they are super strong, blah.

Which means I have a fuck-load of options. Perry, Luca, Emily. I'm not an option anymore, because my vote is actually pretty important [how did that happen?!]

Selena is asking me what we should do [basically letting me decide what way we vote, I think] and now I have to decide what I should do. I know Hannah has a lot of connections with AJ/Chase [who are my people] and a bunch of others, and QE has connections with a fuckload of others, same with Luca.

Perry and Selena are pretty much free-agents as am I. However, Perry is forgetting a key rule in an All-Star game: never target a big name too early.

First of all, know your position. I don't really care for Perry, and he approached me, our conversations have been awful, way worst than anyone else in the tribe. So he is counting on someone who had chosen him as his target. Second of all, the people who are super connected, that means that if I vote them out a lot of people will want my head in a platter. And third of all, I can use those connections during the swaps, if Queen Ellen wants me around, she will make her disciples keep me around.

Then at the merge, I can figure it out. So, I think my decision is as follows: approach Ellen, tell her the plot and become her "pocket-pet" or have her think that. She would think I am so enamored by her and so loyal that she will protect me, with her protection I will go far in the game, and eventually I figure out a way to get her out which will make me look good and not make half the cast hate me.

Sorry Perry, but you approached the wrong guy.

[knox]

EPISODE I

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I was going to do a video confessional, but I was helping someone doing some heavy lifting, moving boxes and couches so I'm all sweaty and gross. Which means, I have to type.

Anyways, the vote ended being Emily. Not for lack of trying, but unlike last season I am trying to be more flexible because in the end, my stubbornness always gets me screwed over. So I'm giving them Emily, and then they will give me Perry's head in a platter.

Hannah drew to the same conclusion, as did Serena so I basically just agreed. Do I want Emily gone? No. But she is not important enough for my game to sacrifice it all either, she would have been next gone either way.

Gloria called me today, she was basically telling me that her group really wants to work with me because she put a good word for me. And while I appreciate that she would do such a thing, I am also a little like... it's not annoyed, but I am just like blah about it, because that means they want to work with me because Gloria said so, and not because they like me. Gloria said she is playing this game for "us" meaning her and me, which basically means I have to do the same thing.

My friendship with Gloria is more important than any game.

But I wish she had left that unsaid so the pressure wasn't as much... now I feel like every decision has to be more careful because the last thing I want is to screw her game up like last season. But I also want to play my own game, and create my own relationships and my own alliances.

For example I want to work with Hannah and Chase more than Ellen and Luca, who even though I really like them, I like Hannah and Chase a lot more. Gloria would probably not stand for that, but at some point I have to make my own decisions too.

On a side note, Hannah is REALLY flirty. Which is interesting, I had never actually used flirting as a strategy in a game, but I think I am doing it? I mean I'm a pretty good flirt, but I don't usually do it in games like for real, for real. It's an interesting thing. I mean, I like feeling attractive, but who doesn't?

Anyways, Emily should go home. Even if Perry tries to turn the vote on me. Ellen/Luca seem to think I am working with them and Selena. I told Ellen and Luca I wanted to work with them in the future, but we never made anything official, which means technically there is no real bond to them. Unspoken alliances are NOT alliances. Just friendships.

[knox]

EPISODE II

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I got off my flight not long ago, and I am exhausted, not only do I look like shit but I am like not all there. But I am too lazy to type, so there. Hope you guys enjoy it. Let me know if that > written confs or the other way around, I'll do whatever is better for you guys.

[knox]

I got into the idol board.
TOO FUCKING LATE!!!!
Gah, Perry better not idol me out.

[knox]

THE IDOL AT CHASE'S CAMP IS GONE TOO!!!!
WHAT.THE.FUCK.
If Perry doesn't pull an idol out of his ass, then I will question Ellen/Luca about it.

[knox]

EPISODE III

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First episode that I name after a Luca quote, or a non-Hannah one. Anyways...

Perry went home, and he didn't have an idol, funny thing is that he didn't even vote for me. I am beyond glad, obviously, but that just made me wonder who had the idol, and why I hadn't been told about it.

If I am so close to them then why didn't anyone come to me to celebrate? Gloria told me that Ellen/Luca wanted to play with me, work with me. But... how can I trust them if they are not completely forward about things?

I asked Ellen and she told me that she had it, straight up. I wish she had been the one who approached me to let me know she had the idol. It would have surely saved a lot of concerns I had going into the vote.

The idols are MIA, all three of them have been claimed, I know who has two of them, but I don't know who has the one in Chase's tribe, but I will figure it out. Maybe Henry, or Cassie, Thiago even. Whoever it is, they are dangerous. As is Ellen, despite how much I like her.

Right now, the person I trust the most is Hannah, if we lose I think she would be the target, but I will defend her. Because we had a deal, and I never had a spoken deal with Ellen/Luca even tho I like them and I treat them like we are aligned. It's all about perspective though.

Ideally, Selena would leave next leaving my options really open in a swap, but for some reason I don't see that happening. So, we will see... now it's time to play catch, and I am obviously going to be the pitcher, because that's the position I am good at and I actually enjoy.

Gotta echo real life, right?

[knox]

EPISODE III

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God, I am SO frustrated. This challenge is supposed to be easy, and even fun, in an odd way. I was really excited to pitch things and just let everyone else catch my balls. But it's Selena's birthday and she said she wanted to pitch and I, not wanting to be a dick for a change, said I would catch for her if she pitched me.

Well, Selena sucks at pitching. She literally did a horrible job, it's not too hard to throw 3 balls each minute, Like, not hard at all. I did it and Ellen did it, well this chick launched two instead of three's a lot of times, and even one ball per minute. ONE. Are you kidding me?!

Not only that but there are huge chunks of times missing. Me and Ellen posted for hours straight, this girl has hours missing. A WHOLE FUCKING HOUR!!!!

And yes, you could make the argument that she has a life and bla bla. The thing is, she is always complaining that she does NOT have a life. Like seriously, I really like Selena but talking about her life is so... blah, because all she does is complain about how much it sucks. I feel for her, but then if you have nothing better to do, wouldn't a challenge that requires you to have no life for two hours straight be perfectly tailored for her?

Apparently not.

Frustrating. I was gonna do this rant in video conf form but A. not sure if video confs are appreciated, B. my accent comes out hardcore when I'm frustrated and that would have been all bad.

Anyways, I have like half an hour before I have to start catching balls, I better not mess this up after writing a whole confessional bitching about how much Selena sucks. If we lose, she can join Starr in the birthday club aka people who get voted out in their birthday.[lol sorry Starr, love ya <3]

[knox]

EPISODE III

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Before I start this confessional let me say that I absolutely adore Gloria outside of the game, and I treasure her friendship above all.

But...

I am completely and absolutely annoyed with her right now. Not only is she trying to control my whole game and tell me who is better for me to align with, and who isn't, but she keeps calling me "bottom bitch" which I actually told her that A. is not the case whatsoever and B. really annoys me.

Now I am gonna go on a tangent about gay sex life for the next paragraph, so feel free to skip over it if you don't wanna read that.

How is even being a bottom an insult though? She is using it as one, and lets be real here, if there were no bottoms,who would us tops have sex with? No one, cause tops don't bottom, unless they are vers, but then they are not tops. Using "bottom bitch" as an insult is ridiculous, who are you gonna fuck then Gloria? Another top? Doubtful, I am certain that won't happen.

Anyways, Gloria is trying to control things with me, and that doesn't bode well with me. Because in all honesty, I don't want to play this side because of a friendship outside of this game, I love Gloria and we are really good together, but the people I like the most are not part of her little alliance. Hannah, Chase and Mark are by far my favorite people in this game [besides Gloria], and I honestly want to work with them.

Gloria wants Mark gone though, but I won't let it happen, I am gonna let him know so he can play his idol if necessary. Oops. I don't want Gloria to go home, obviously, but sometimes I wonder if her leaving before we can be together might be best for my game. It would definitively make me feel like I can play whichever way I want.

My fear is, if I do go ahead and do what I want she gets pissed and ruin our friendship. I think our friendship should be stronger than an online game, but... Gloria has a temper, and she said she was playing this for us which I wish she hadn't said cause now I feel guilty.

Anyways, I will end my Gloria rant and just say I am very proud of the way I did on this challenge. I am an awful catcher [in many senses] and I thought I would suck, but I only missed six balls and four were because proboards is a piece of shit. So, I guess... not too bad for a 100% pitcher

[knox]

EPISODE III

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Finally figured out how to post videos without a weird link, hope you guys like this. I can type next time, if you guys prefer that method, just let me know!

[knox]

IMPORTANT STRATEGIC CONVERSATION

[Please don't share with other PWers, there is a reason I only chose a few to view my confessional. I don't want cheaters like Faith to possibly screw over anything for me and Hannah because she is butthurt she sucked so much in FvF that her pre-game sent her packing round 1][/center][/color][/i]

Knox O Pompillio 10:35 pm
COME BACK

Hannah (jm10132182) is available 10:39 pm
Hannah 10:39 pm
im back =-O

Knox O Pompillio 10:40 pm
hi

Hannah 10:40 pm
whats up?

Knox O Pompillio 10:40 pm
well, we lost\

Hannah 10:40 pm
I saw, I was keeping myself updated during dinner

Knox O Pompillio 10:40 pm
and we need to decide what to do
I see two options
1. Vote out Selena, if we have a swap then Ellen/Luca are better connected so their conenctions might help us

Knox O Pompillio 10:41 pm
2. Vote out Luca, if we stay the same, then we don't risk a tie where one of us goes home because one will be immune and the pother will have the idol.

Hannah 10:42 pm
well if we vote Luca, as shady as it seems, Ellen cant know about it
because she may very well use the idol
and take one of us out
Selena is an easy bet, but if Luca and Ellen do have connections...whats to say they wont ditch them for us>
*?

Knox O Pompillio 10:43 pm
it would def have to be shady business if we vote out luca
i mean if we stay on this tribes
selena sucks

Hannah 10:43 pm
my fear is, if ellen does have connections (which I know she does, she kind of admitted it to me)
that shes just gonna say bye to us
and use the people she knows better regardless
if we vote with her or not this round

Knox O Pompillio 10:44 pm
:-\
thats true

Hannah 10:44 pm
I personally think the balloons were what the tribe swap is about

Knox O Pompillio 10:44 pm
me ttoo

Hannah 10:44 pm
because I didnt get anything in like my confessional about it
like a power or anything

Knox O Pompillio 10:45 pm
me either
my thing is, if there is a swap
and we vote out luca
ellen and her connections will be out to get us
cause we would have lied

Hannah 10:45 pm
its a catch 22 tb
*tbh
because we may be a target regardless
the question is, can we trust Ellen if we do not vote out Luca
to be with us
and not with her connections

Hannah 10:45 pm
if we cant...why not take out one of those connections now

Knox O Pompillio 10:45 pm
its such a hard choice
we need to make sure selena is with us tho in case we decide to do that
cause if she tells ellen/luca
we are FUCKED
even worst

Hannah 10:46 pm
Im going to write my judgement response real quit, brb.
Selena feels along I think, I think we can get her vote, but brb

Knox O Pompillio 10:46 pm
okay

Hannah 10:49 pm
hey

Knox O Pompillio 10:50 pm
hi

Hannah 10:51 pm
My head atm it leaning toward booting Luca. I mean, if we do do that, then Selena may be greatful (if she is the vote by Luca/Ellen)
I just dont trust Ellen enough to be like, oh hey, lets trust you wont choose your past people over us
regardless

Knox O Pompillio 10:51 pm
right
I am just nervous
I dont wanna be a target if we swap
which IS gonna happen
if we kick out Luca

Hannah 10:52 pm
But if we dont, do you think we wont?

Knox O Pompillio 10:52 pm
i think we could be benefited from it

Hannah 10:53 pm
You think ellen will be good to us if we do her this solid?

Knox O Pompillio 10:55 pm
i dont know
merp

Hannah 10:55 pm
Thats what we need to decide, if the answer is yes at the end of the day, if thats how we feel, then Selena needs to be booted.

Hannah 10:56 pm
if the answer is no, Luca needs to be sent out, take out a lacky while we can

Knox O Pompillio 10:56 pm
its all up to you and me, really

Hannah 10:56 pm
Basically.
which is good and bad

Knox O Pompillio 10:58 pm
yeaaah

Knox O Pompillio 10:58 pm
at least we can control what happens

Hannah 10:58 pm
exactly. our fate is in our hands
if we make the right move, we pat ourselves on the back
the wrong move, we put our heads down in shame

Knox O Pompillio 10:59 pm
exactly
its such a hard choice

Hannah 10:59 pm
Im going to go get my Ben and Jerrys and think this over for a second
haha

[knox]

PEOPLE REALLY NEED TO STOP TRYING TO MEDDLE IN TRIBAL COUNCIL'S THAT ARE NOT THEIRS.
IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK TO LET PEOPLE PLAY THEIR OWN GAME?

IDGAF WHO YOU THINK IS A BIG THREAT.
IDGAF WHO IS YOUR BFF4E

I WANNA PLAY MY OWN GAME, SO LEAVE ME AND EDURO ALONE!!!

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[knox]

EPISODE III

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I hate lying. I absolutely 100% despise it, it's not how I like to play this game and it's not who I am as a person, and right now I am lying so much and it's just making me really upset.

Normally, I am a very emotional player. That's the way I play, because that is the way I live my life. But throughout GvsE I have managed to keep the emotional train-wreck mostly under covers and just hidden. But I can feel it slowly approaching.

Basically, I was an idiot and turned to who I thought would be able to listen to me and maybe be a good friend about it and just you know? Let me rant. Obviously it couldn't be Gloria because she was too invested with the Ellen side, not only that but she would have told me what to do. So I turned to Chase, who was supposed to be neutral.

I laid it all out on the table, he PROMISED he was not going to say anything. He promised. He broke his promise. Not only did he basically tell me I would be an idiot to back up Luca/Ellen who would ditch me first chance they get. But he went ahead and talked to AJ about what I said, and she told Selena and now Selena basically repeated verbatim what I told Chase about my concerns about her.

Word by fucking word.

I am SO, soooooooooo pissed. And hurt, and I feel stupid. Because now I have to lie to everyone. Luca and Ellen said they won't vote for me, Selena said the same and Hannah just won't.

I feel horrible, Ellen said it would be "low" for Luca to vote me out, so he won't. Which clearly means if I do, I would be low, and she would be hurt, both her and Luca who said he trusts me. And Selena, who I had been avoiding, approached me because of Chase and she wants to do the Luca vote.

But, what is best for me? I don't know, with so many people lobbying and telling me what to do. I need to just decide what is gonna be the best for my own game.

Selena clearly has AJ/Chase and everyone else on her side, which are connections. But, if those two sides are fighting, wouldn't it benefit me to be in the middle? Wouldn't it be smarter for me to keep the sides fighting while I kind of stay under the radar, and just skate by?

The truth is, I don't have anyone to rely on. If I am someone's target very few people will stand up for me. One of them is Gloria, who I hate myself for talking about in my last written conf, because I know she wants what is best for me, and she is my friend [And now, she might go home as well, which leaves me beyond along] The other is probably Mark, and then there is Hannah. I thought Chase was someone else, but clearly that is no longer the case.

This decision is either gonna make or break my game. I know it. So I need to make sure it's right one.