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Post by knox on Jul 9, 2013 21:58:47 GMT -5
Thiago just found the fucking idol, 3 minutes to go to deadline. Played it on himself as Henry thinks he is the vote. Whatever happens we either idol them out OR we increase our odds when it comes to rocks. FUCK I AM SO NERVOUS!!!!
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Post by knox on Jul 9, 2013 22:52:51 GMT -5
EPISODE IX [/b] "We deserved a little bit of luck"[/font]  [/center] Holy fucking shit, merge!!!!! I can't stop grinning, I probably look like a total idiot, but who cares? I made the merge! And after the worst time in the game for me! I am so happy, and proud and just... I could scream and yay!!!
It's a little bittersweet because I know how it's gonna look to Dominic, and I do care about his friendship even though we are in separate sides of the game. And I don't want him to think that I manipulated the situation by me asking him to let me pull rocks last night. It's not the case at all, Thiago found the idol at 10:51 and I told him to play it on himself because Henry thought they were voting for him. That's all.
Thiago wants me to lie to them though. About not knowing about the idol. I absolutely HATE lying, in this game and in real life and it's completely unnecessary. Why does pretending I don't know about the idol matter? He says it would make us seem less tight but the fact is, it won't... the game is 5v5 and that's it! Like no one is gonna turn, that is definitive. And me knowing or not knowing about the idol is not going to change things.
I think Thiago is wanting to remain to be viewed as a swing vote. And that only benefits him, and that's not fair, we are supposed to be here as a team of five, the moment one of us starts thinking selfishly we might as well give the game to the Queen. I am not going to lie and especially not unnecessarily. Sorry Thiago, but I don't play that game.
Now we merged and I feel my chances are not too good. I am barely social with Ben/Colleen and no one is talking to me. They are all talking to each other, but guess who is talking to me? No one. I feel like they all consider me a total non-factor. Not even Dom is talking to me, which I mean I guess because of what I said above makes sense.
Henry is the only one talking to me. I love that guy. Oh well, I guess I am gonna go see what people have to say, if anything at all. |
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Post by knox on Jul 11, 2013 0:00:05 GMT -5
EPISODE IX [/b] "We might kill each other, but it could be fun"[/font] [/center] This challenge is kinda draining, not because it's hard bit because there are so many parts to it already. And in order to win and guarantee myself Final Nine I have to absolutely crush every part of the challenge... which considering the fact I am by no means a competition kind of player I see zero chances for.
Both sides have an idol at this point. Cassie figured out the idol clues and she said the idol had been found. The rest of us were working hard on figuring it out and Thiago guessed incorrectly earlier so someone from the Queen's Army has got an idol.
This merge is starting to feel strange. Apparently people have been attacking AJ and accusing her of making the game divided and mean. From what I have heard it was both AJ and Ellen who did it all, but people are just making this some kind of huge deal. It saddens me that people will no longer talk to those on the other side.
Today I tried chatting with Ben and he kinda blew me off, and I also tried with Dominic and we were talking, then he stopped. It's sad because I feel like now that he has the idol he won't even bother talking to me... and I thought we were like super close. However, today I found out he has been sharing everything I have been telling him with Ben... it's kind of upsetting to be honest because we promised what we discussed would stay between us. I haven't discussed anything he told me, but he has. He told Ben I called him a "disgusting human being" as can be seen under his avatar, which I actually regret. I don't think Ben is an awful human being, I was just frustrated with the way he used and abused Mark's friendship.
I am a social player so the fact that I can't talk to people is totally making me sad. Especially when people on my side are all like "Why are you even talking to them?" like it's some kind of heinous crime of sorts. I just feel out of the loop, like I'm at the bottom of the whole thing and there's nothing I can do, in my alliance I am certain I am fifth wheeling it. But I can't do anything about it because the other side won't talk to me, and even Dominic has started ignoring me... so, what are my options really?
I thought Survivor was the ultimate social game, so why am I being ignored and not talked to? Am I not going to the jury at some point? I guess, in a way that is also why I keep trying to talk to people, because I want them to know this divisions don't matter to me. Yes, it is a five on five game right now but that doesn't mean we have to be catty and mean about it. I mean, Dominic said last night they were just angry Luca left, but it's not like we are rubbing it in their faces, we are just genuinely happy that we have a shot now that we are merging. And they are acting like it's some awful crime. It kinda reminds me of Jessie's funeral in Big Brother 11, that'w how ridiculous this whole thing is.
I am also changing the episode title to a quote I said in response to Henry suggesting all of us hanging out in G-Hang as a merged tribe. Possible episode title over-all? *hint hint*
On other good news, I have realized that I am the only player that has been in every single tribe in this whole game. AND the player who has been on the biggest number of tribes total in the series. Not sure if in my whole journey as a player, but I think I might hold that record too, depending on what the three-time players have. But yay making GvE history <3 |
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Post by knox on Jul 11, 2013 20:19:05 GMT -5
Dominic eliminated me before Thiago and Henry?! Clearly something is up there. Wonder what happened. Part of me wants to ask, but in all honesty his mood swings terrify me. It is more than obvious I can no longer trust him though.
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Post by knox on Jul 12, 2013 1:55:51 GMT -5
EPISODE IX [/b] "We might kill each other, but it could be fun"[/font] [/center] This round is absolutely 100% insanity. The way the challenge went makes it so that the other side has a 1/4 chance of going home unless the idol is played right. They have two people immune, then one safe by an idol, and then whoever we vote for would be safe from rocks. Then our side only has one idol, then whoever they vote for would be immune and three of us will go into rocks.
Our hope is that we get to play the idol on the right person and then Selena goes home. We had this big G-Hang where we tried to decide whom to vote for and who to play the idol on. It was a very hard decision because we truly have nothing to base it on. In reality we don't think any of them are gonna talk to us until the deadline so then things are gonna be all up for luck.
We settled on Selena because people feel that if Ellen found the idol she would give it to Colleen or Ben. I think Selena is more likely to get it, but who knows? It's really a crap-shoot. The idol on our side is apparently being played on me, I think it's a terrible move as I don't think I'll get the votes but they all are confident that it's better played on me. I mean, I am gonna be safe so I can't complain much but I def tried not to get it.
My strategy at this point is to continue to build bonds with Ellen's side because in reality our chances of staying five strong are slim to none. And thus I am gonna need all that I can get in the weeks to come. I'm not gonna stop playing and I want them to know that I am not just socializing with them because I am screwed, but instead that I never stopped. It's gonna be seen as sincere and that benefits me over others. I feel.
If my side goes down this round, which is very likely, I have a plan already. I plan to offer either Ellen or Dominic my vote in the end if they take me to Final 5, I am gonna tell them the truth, that people said they won't vote for them at the end [it was mentioned many times during our G-Hang] and that my vote could make the difference. I think they both want to win bad enough that they would take me on the offer. Obviously I can only offer this to one of them because I don't want them to discuss it with the other and have my plan be blown. And either way if they both made finals then I would be lying about my vote and that would suck.
For now, I am just gonna be social and let everyone else do the work. Henry is trying to make sure they don't vote for him so that the idol comes into play and because he says his odds are better picking rocks as it would be 1/4 as opposed to 1/3 on who plays the idol. Part of me feels they might not play the idol, especially if it's Ellen's because she would want to keep it for when she needs it more. But what do I know?
I am very excited to make Final 9 and I hope that after that I can kick my game into gear. My favorite kind of game to play is when my back is against the wall because then it's a fight, as a highly competitive person and a fighter I tend to do better when I'm in that position. So even if my side ends losing at this tie situation, I know it's just gonna lit a fire under me. |
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Post by knox on Jul 12, 2013 22:32:16 GMT -5
EPISODE IX [/b] "We might kill each other, but it could be fun"[/font] [/center] |
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Post by knox on Jul 15, 2013 0:02:27 GMT -5
EPISODE X [/b] "I don't do well with hard things"[/font] [/center] Things are interesting. One would think we have the majority already so we can steam-roll through the rest of the game until we become the final five. But clearly, with an idol and everything going on you can never be too sure.
The fact of the matter is we are never going to be able to feel completely safe. Because the idols are out there, and either they have it and we can get idoled, or we find them and then we have a shot... it's so difficult though, I know three out of our five have tried guessing, and I want to guess but I don't want to waste it. Because even if it's gone, at least we will know they have it.
The idol is hard though, all I can think of is England, London and they already like got that and it's wrong. This is yet another hard decision, because we need to think of who won't get the idol. Thiago wants to vote out Coleen but I think that is absolutely ridiculous, why would we waste a vote on her? It's obvious we would vote for her, I feel, and then if one of us goes, would we rather go trying to get out a threat or one of Ellen/Dominic.
None of them have talked to me today, and in general they don't speak to me unless I IM them first, which is disappointing for sure. But I am gonna keep trying, even if it's completely one sided because that is who I am and I don't want to just ignore people. Probably not tonight though, because I need to figure out what I want to do so I can bring it up to my alliance.
Yet another difficult round, but this time around I am ready. Bring it on! |
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Post by knox on Jul 15, 2013 18:24:15 GMT -5
EPISODE X [/b] "I don't do well with hard things"[/font] [/center] I am soooooooooooooooooooo bummed. This round sucks major cock, not only did Ben get immune, but I got some of the worst answers in the whole poll. I didn't expect to be the most heroic, or the nicest or anything like that, but... I got like all the awful answers! I guess whatever I am doing, I am not doing it right.
Furthermore I guessed for the first idol, something that had been on my mind since yesterday night. But the idol was already gone, not sure if it would have been on time or not but it is still really frustrating. I am super proud of myself though, because I found the idol by myself. I shared my answer with Thiago and he said "That can't be it, it's dumb" then five seconds later said it could be because of the pronunciation.
But I got it right, and proved I am very much underestimated. Which makes me really proud and happy, though it obviously sucks that I was a little too late.
Now comes the decision about the vote. Thiago already voted, because AJ said she was fine with voting out Colleen and Cassie/Henry said they didn't care. So he chose to vote already. I don't understand why he is being so selfish with votes this past few rounds, like I know I did it last season but this season with all the intensity and how hard we had worked and how tight we have to be... I don't think it works like that.
PLus I think voting out Colleen is truly a waste of time. Now that we know they have the idol this is a total crap-shoot, we literally have a 1/3 in hitting whoever has an idol, no matter how much logic we put to the situation. In reality, I would much rather go home trying to vote out Ellen or Dominic than Colleen who on this game is completely a non-factor.
Plus, in a much more selfish light I want to vote out Dominic. I absolutely adore the guy, but I am pretty confident that it's not a mutual thing. He only talks to me when he needs something, as soon as that idol was found he hasn't talked to me at all. I know that Dominic, at this point, is my cryptonite, he is the one person who can get in my head and fuck me up and I need him gone. I have already decided I want to go to the finals with Thiago and probably Cassie. After the challenge I think it's pretty clear that Henry [my original F2 plan of the alliance] is considered an amazing player, and AJ is seen as our leader.
Which means if I want to win, I have to take Thiago and Cassie, it's a decision that kinda sucks because Henry has been my rock for the game and AJ is a great friend. But I want to win, and I do not want to settle for less. |
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Post by knox on Jul 16, 2013 19:39:54 GMT -5
EPISODE XI [/b] "The refresh button is gonna break!"[/font] [/center] We survived, yet again. It's so incredible how this keeps happening, and we are all super nervous every single time and it just happens. A sigh of relief is always amazing. I am somewhat upset that they keep voting for me, like why would they do that? I am like the only one [according to them] that talks to them constantly and tries to reach out. So, why do they want to vote me out? Do they think they can get the others to turn on me?
I am so excited to be at the final 8, surviving two more rounds and I have made it past my last mark. In the history of the series, only Gloria has improved her placing upon returning. Of course this season a lot of those can change, this round if they survive it I believe Dom and AJ would have improved their last placement. For people like Ellen/Cassie/Henry/Thiago the improvement is a lot harder to achieve, but doable. I am really close and I hope that I can seal the deal.
I've tried to be social today, had small chats with Dom and Ellen and the people in my alliance. I told them they had to find that second idol, because as I predicted last night when we were deciding the vote: they do not have the idol. It was pretty obvious because if they had it they would have never passed immunity from Ben to Dom and just try to blindside us by leaving both of their biggest targets exposed.
This round we have to find two idols, if we do then we can simply coast by not using them and just voting them out. It would be ideal, so I hope they can pull the second idol out, I already guessed incorrectly so I am not sure how much I can help but I am still gonna continue.
I don't know if I can ever win this game, but I am gonna give it my all. |
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Post by knox on Jul 18, 2013 19:09:46 GMT -5
EPISODE XI [/b] "The refresh button is gonna break!"[/font] [/center] This round has been possibly the slowest of all the game. It's not that absolutely horrible, but I feel like right now the whole thing is stagnant. There's not much to do when half the people in the game don't really care to chat.
However, some people are clearly trying to stir up trouble. Namely Ben. Last night I went into a skype room with AJ, Ellen, Dominic, Ben and our beloved Morgan, Dominic invited me saying they just wanted to chat. I feel like it was somewhat awkward, it might have been because of all the tensions in the game. But literally we just talked about stupid stuff, we didn't really mention game at all.
However, this morning, Henry told me that Ben was saying that me and AJ had made up and made some kind of deal with Dominic and Ellen. He told Henry he was "nervous" about the chat last night because we were getting chummy. Henry knows that Ben is trying something, and I am not sure if its a pre-meditated thing with the other two, but something is fishy.
I talked to Henry and was honest about it, he knew we were chatting last night cause I sent him a Snapchat, but apparently Ben's little charade is making him doubt us in a way. I guess having a normal conversation with "the enemy" makes rumors go rampant. I am hoping Henry knows that I have yet to lie in the game and he can trust me. And either way, Ben tried this shenanigan last season as well.
Funny enough Ben was the least of our worries, but if he is willing to make up stuff and go insane... well, then maybe he is a bigger threat than I gave him credit for and needs to be terminated soon. The problem is, with Colleen gone, they are all big threats. As a matter of fact, every single player left in this game is a threat in their own accord, and I have to decide, which ones are the ones that I need to take out sooner and which ones I can leave for latter. . |
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Post by knox on Jul 19, 2013 2:51:39 GMT -5
EPISODE XI [/b] "The refresh button is gonna break!"[/font] [/center] I don't think JABBA had ever came to a faster decisions. Oh, by the way JABBA is the name of our alliance, I think it's a pretty silly name, but whatever, AJ wanted to name the alliance and we all complied. It's all of our initials together. I kinda liked KATCH better, but oh well. It's just an alliance name.
Tonight JABBA decided that we were going to take a big risk and try to get rid of the biggest fish of them all: the Queen. A strike on the Queen is no easy task, she has a knack for finding idols and she always knows exactly what is going on, but getting rid of Ben seems absolutely pointless. Perhaps he is making rumors that are affecting my personal game but he isn't as smart or as good as competitions as Queen Ellen.
We are dividing out votes, they know we have an idol and last time they did they divided their votes just in case we played it in the right person. We are assuming they could do the same, so we are dividing the votes between her and Ben. In reality, it doesn't really matter, if an idol is played in the Queen one of us would go home regardless. But if the idol is played AND they divide their votes, we have a fighting chance.
I was the most vocal about getting the Queen out, I believe, in my mind it's better to strike down the threats when we have a shot. Especially because I firmly believe she does not have the idol, Henry and AJ are on the same page. Thiago is the only one who showed any hesitation on voting out the Queen, no surprises there. I definitively think he is loyal, but sometimes I feel he has his own agenda. I love the guy, but he has a history of liking things done his way and being somewhat shady.
Unlike the past two Tribals I do not expect votes this time. Mostly because I went to Dominic and asked him to make a pretty vote for me this time. He said he wasn't going to vote for me, but I just shrugged it off. I think by me telling them that I am expecting votes it would make them far more hesitant to vote for me since I'd ask people to play their idols on me. Or at least that is my hope, but they have voted for me twice, so why not three times?
Talking about idols, if they don't have the second one. I believe we are in full control, Thiago is not going to play his idol which means there will be no idol hidden next round, and since we are almost certain they have already used up their guesses for the one at camp... well, then no idols should be played form now on. Hopefully I am correct about the assumptions. If new clues arrive, then I am gonna do my darnest to make sure we get the idol way before Dominic [or Ben]. I feel like finally we have some control in the game and we need to harness it for all that it's worth.
If I make finals, I am already trying to think of ways I can spin things around to my favor. I know for a fact many people don't see me as some big player, or anything along those lines. Many seem to think I shouldn't have been cast in the first place, but I am a decent speaker and if I make the finals I am going to fight for that title. Now it's just about making it there. |
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Post by knox on Jul 19, 2013 23:14:18 GMT -5
Cassie 11:38 pm
i have a feeling.
i've had a feeling for quite a while that i'd get 8th place
Cassie 11:39 pm
i know that sounds stupid, but it's true
Episode title? That paranoid bitch. I guess it seems like I am gonna be getting votes until they are all gone or I actually leave. Shocking. I wonder if they are trying to send me some kind of message, funny that Dominic promised me he wasn't going to vote for me last night. Another promise he breaks. Shocker.
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Post by knox on Jul 21, 2013 0:24:19 GMT -5
EPISODE XII [/b] "You're such a dick, so i don't get how yours is so small!"[/font] [/center] The Queen has been dethroned, and I have to admit that it's a bittersweet moment, because I genuinely like Ellen a lot. But she was by far the biggest threat, it also sucks that her record got ruined, but I honestly feel she should take it as an honor that she was targeted every single round and it wasn't until she was finally not immune that she went home. It's impressive and she played the absolutely most amazing game.
Now it's final seven, last time this is the time I left. Hopefully I can make it further. I guess at this point it's all about finding the idol that still remains hidden and then win immunity so we can properly divide the votes. I know my track record in challenges this game is awful, but I am gonna give it my all. Obviously.
I have to admit though, I am somewhat surprised by one of the votes I got on the revote. It was super aggressive, probably from Ben, I think it was rather unnecessary, just like Dominic lying to me about them not voting for me was as well. I am starting to think Dom kinda lies and doesn't realize it. Maybe I'm being overdramatic though. Wouldn't be the first time.
Thiago told me that Ellen said they had been voting for whoever they decided they wanted to spend less time with. I hope that is not the case since that would make really sad because I genuinely like all of them. Ben less because I think he is trying to manipulate friendships, but... I do like him. I would be really sad if I realized they never really liked me.
Oh wellz. Final Seven <3 |
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Post by knox on Jul 22, 2013 15:17:27 GMT -5
I FOUND AN IDOL, FINALLY!!!!!![/b]
That shit was intense, a full update soon <3
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Post by knox on Jul 22, 2013 16:17:32 GMT -5
EPISODE XII [/b] "You're such a dick, so i don't get how yours is so small!"[/font] [/center] Alright so, everything had turned around SO hardcore it's not even funny. We have the two idols now, Thiago holds one and I have found the other one. Which means Ben is going to go hoem this round no questions asked and then next round we just have to go ham for the challenge and make sure Dominic does not win.
I am happy for him, genuinely, like I think he deserves to at least match his placement. He has worked his ass off in this game, and even if he is trying to manipulate emotions of mine and AJ, he has earned his spot and I am glad he gets to outlast Ben. The best thing about Ben going is that his placement has went from 5th to 6th to 7th, which is like totally hilarious.
Yesterday I got punched so I have a black-eye, it's better today, but that is why I had such a hard time with the challenge. That with the combination of absolute laziness definitively did me in. Whatever, the rightful person won.
Now, the idol... apparently I guessed at the same time as Dominic. It was so weird because I was on G-Hang with AJ and she was almost crying because apparently Ben and Dominic are being major cocks and trying to use her emotions against her. Anyways, they wanted her to guess for them and give them the idol, which she was conflicted about. Poor little AJ, she has too much of a big heart.
Anyways all of a sudden I stare at the clues and the word "nymph" come to mind, and I guess. I get it! But apparently Dominic guessed at the exact same time, what?! AJ receives a text from Dominic bitching at her for telling me the answer, which she didn't do... How he knew that I was the one he tied with I have no idea, but I think it was kinda sketchy.
Anyways, we have to go into a tiebreaker basically to figure out a new idol. I for sure thought I was done for, Dominic is a lot smarter than me and he is good at this shit. And then... as we got to the fifth clue I got it. It was literally the first answer on google if you typed all the words with a + between them. I literally screamed and cheered, and AJ laughed at me.
Finally, an idol of my own. Last two times Ellen beat me to the punch, now that the Queen is gone I got it, and I got it fair and square. Then this happened:
Good sport. I don't feel bad because I earned it. I truly fought for it and I won and I said the truth, he has lied to me more times than I can count and I would be an idiot to turn on JABBA [still hate the name] so I am just happy. I earned this, and this basically means no matter what I am going to be one of the few people [Gloria, AJ so far] in the history of GvE to have come back and improved their placement. I can't express how proud this makes me. |
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