Episode Six

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To be honest, I wasn't sad to see Chase go.

I think Chase is an idiot. This is the third time that Selena says she will vote for Luca and doesn't, and Chase pays the price. He's a complete moron and deserved to leave. From what I understand, as per Ellen who was told by Michael, he passed his idol to Cassie so there's still hope for something good happening on Proelia.

I confronted Cassie a bit about being so blinded by Dominic and Selena and she got super defensive. She doesn't realize that her stupid actions impact everyone else. We are handing this game to Ellen and her crew. This is a season of very stupid moves. People don't want to believe the writing that's on the wall. I think Cassie has a lot of growing up to do because her ego is so large that she isn't able to admit that she has made many mistakes.

AJ came up with the idea for the challenge that we all pick numbers between 143-150 so that we can increase our chances of winning individual immunity. We did this, and after the challenge, it worked somewhat because myself and Henry won but unfortunately Ben of all people wins. WORST CASE SCENARIO. Ellen has the idol so we have to vote Ben. At this stage our alliance of 5 (AJ/MARK/KNOX/HENRY/ME) is working with Cassie/Michael and trying to stop the 6 (Ellen/Dominic/Luca/Selena/Ben/Colleen) from taking control of this game.

Michael, however, is stupid and told Ellen everything about the challenge plan and Ellen confronted me about it and I half confirmed it, telling her I was told to do 144 but I didn't know who was all in on it. I think Ellen has been very aggressive this game in the way she speaks to me, almost as if I've done some awful thing and I ought to fess up and sing my apologies to her for doing something without telling her. Ellen has this chip on her shoulder that everyone is out to get her and that it's unfair and that anyone who does something without her permission is an enemy and must die. I know Sami and this isn't the Ellen I know and love. A very evil side of her has come out in this game and it has been really discouraging A lot of people has felt the same way and this martyr act comes across horribly self-centred and I think, surprisingly enough, she cannot win a jury vote because she has been so awful to those outside of her alliance, and this includes me.

I've decided to join the anti-Ellen group because Ellen has left me hang to dry and their group will take control completely if they have the numbers. I know Henry and I have discussed ping ponging back and forth between the two groups and never letting either side take a majority, much like what Knox tried to do last season but failed at.

On a side note, Knox and I have become very close. I really like the kid and I think he genuinely has trust in me that he may not want to have because he's worried about last season, but I do think I can count on him at this point. It's amazing how things change. I think he's a terrific person and I would be happy if he won.

I feel like I'm playing this game very day-by-day and just hoping to stick around, unlike last season where I played to win and thought very far in advance. I feel like it's impossible to do that this time around and I've tried to not worry about winning because people who get consumed/paranoid about winning, like Ellen and Cassie for example, come across awfully and ruin it for themselves. I'm not saying I'm not trying to win, but I think winning last season makes my desire to win a bit less because I've already done it. I'd rather help those who I believe are great people and deserve a shot at winning this. I feel that Ellen's group has been so ruthless this game and have really broken friendships and promises and it has been painful to watch as an outsider looking in. It has truly been a malicious game.

Before we lost I guess AJ/Knox were in Ghang with Wendy and they were discussing taking out Ben, but when he won immunity it was awkward because he was safe. After that session, myself/Knox/AJ/Henry chatted on Ghang and messaged Mark (he's on vacation) about what we were going to do and we agreed to split it between Ellen and Wendy in case Ellen gives her idol to Wendy. I felt she would not risk it but you never know. We decided to make Wendy think it's between Knox and Ellen (this was Knox's plan, too) so that Ellen would feel she was safe or at least we could have Wendy's vote for sure on Ellen because we could not risk Ellen voting for Knox because if she did that, Knox would go home if Wendy was given the idol and it'd be a nightmare. During the chat apparently Wendy was saying it was going to be me leaving which I am still unsure of to this day whether AJ/Knox agreed to that or not,. I think that Henry is loyal to me and I really appreciate that, because during the Ghang chat we had secret chats about the others and what we should do, as if we were a separate entity from the 5.

Ellen was telling me she felt she had the votes to take Knox out but felt it would still be Wendy leaving, so at this point I decided to out Wendy to Ellen so Ellen wouldn't dare protect Wendy with her idol. I told Ellen about Wendy's PM to me about a plan to take out Ellen and split between her and Knox. Minutes later I get angry messages from Wendy saying why am I telling Ellen everything. I then tell Ellen and she apologizes. I really don't care and wanted an argument between them to guarantee that Ellen/Wendy were over, given that we had concerns they were working together. Mark said Wendy would talk to Ellen a lot and that Wendy started to like Ellen suddenly, so we all were worried that Wendy chose to work with the group that has been controlling the game up until this point.

I think Ellen felt guilty and was more open with me about things that have gone on, but it's still too little too late for me. I told her that I would rather vote Wendy because now she is after me thanks to what she did. I know Ellen, she's a people pleaser: she tells me information to make me feel less mad at her and better about her, because she feels guilty for betraying my trust. I want to vote for Wendy and still be seen as someone who may, at the merge, join Ellen and her crew. I want to know who they are voting for so we can use Mark's idol and take them out, much like my ambiguous situation last time with Gloria, which may have won me the game.

I've also grown close with AJ. I told her about what Ellen said regarding Michael running to Ellen about Cassie's idol and about the 143-150 plan. He really shot himself in the foot doing that. Now they can make it a 2-2-2 vote. I recognize that AJ is still close to Cassie, even though she knows what Cassie did to her, but I hope that in being close to AJ, I can have protection from Cassie who I have a very strange relationship with.

Mark, of course, is my main man and we are very open with one another. I care about him very much and I think he's working really hard in this game and also has so many commitments outside of this game that he's sacrificing to participate in this one. I'm not sure why he played given he has so much to do but it's just the love of the game I suppose.

I really hope that Wendy leaves but we still have the issue of taking out on of those 6. When will one of them every go?