Post by aj on Jun 23, 2013 0:21:29 GMT -5
Tonight has been the worst night in the game so far.
New tribes night is supposed to be fun and exciting, right? Meeting the new people, reconnecting with the old, and just celebrating new start.
Nope, not at all. I’m just having a terrible night. I literally just signed off AIM because I was so upset. Well, I was about to sign off. I said goodnight to everyone, but then Luca told me not to go. So I went invisible and I’m only talking to him. I seriously love Luca so much.
I just feel so fucking terrible because of what happened last round. Legatu was safe from judgement, and so I should have just got off the computer and enjoyed the day off. I don’t know what got into me. But all I did was fuck up everything. Because of one comment from Chase about how we need to get Selena and Knox on the same page, I got way, way way too involved. And now I am in a huge mess. I’m in a huge mess in this game, and I’m also an internal mess because I feel so bad.
What’s making everything worse is that like, I have no one to talk to about it. Chase is gone for the night, and I really wish he wasn’t because I’m upset and need to talk to someone. I seriously almost just wanted to confess to Luca and tell him everything. But I don't know if that'd be good or bad. I mean probably good considering half my new tribe knows about what happened, so Luca is bound to find out soon. But I really can't bring myself to admit it to him. I just feel SO bad. Luca is seriously being so sweet to me. I can’t believe I tried to get him voted out. That was so low of me. He keeps telling me how he wanted to be on my tribe, and he almost got voted out last round and he was so upset but he’s glad to still be here…..Ugh. I feel SO bad.
Anyways, I guess I’ll just go through all of my new tribemates.
Ben and I have barely talked this whole game. Like we’ve said close to nothing to each other. We talked a tiny bit tonight, but nothing really much. But he was still being super sweet like always. So I don’t know what’s going to happen with us in this game; I have NO idea where his head is at or anything. But regardless, Ben will always have a special place in my heart. I seriously love him soooo much. He’s one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met, and that’s no exaggeration. I feel privileged to even have him as a friend.
Ugh, awkward already. Ellen is always sweet, but I know how she feels about me, and she knows how I feel about her. It’s not like I’m pretending to be nice, and I know she isn’t either because she really is a nice person. But it’s like, we both are so skeptical of each other and we know what the other one is really thinking in terms of game. It sucks. I wish so badly that we could just align, but I just feel like we’d always doubt each other. The convo got awkward real quick when she brought up the last vote.
Ellen Engelhardt (23:46:57): I'm glad really... just between you and me, I have felt this kind of ominous feeling like I'm being targeted behind the scenes
Ellen Engelhardt (23:48:00):
AJ (23:49:41): yeah that's definitely understandable, obviously everyone knows you're an amazing player
AJ (23:49:49): but i guess in a way everyone here is a good player in their own way
AJ (23:49:53): that's why we're here!
Ellen Engelhardt (23:50:00): it feels a little more personal than that but I see what you're saying!
Ellen Engelhardt (23:50:24): It wouldn't be All Stars without threats
AJ (23:52:22): i'm sure you would have been safe without immunity. haha. but i guess you never know
Ellen Engelhardt (23:53:14): Idk lol, Luca almost left because someone was pushing from behind the scenes
Ugh =/
I am SOOOOO glad Henry is on my new tribe. I would definitely say I trust him most, but that’s honestly not saying a lot because I don’t trust him completely. I’m just going to put most of my trust in him for now, though, and hope for the best. It’s really my only option. We didn’t get to talk much tonight, but hopefully we’ll be able to figure out a plan. Also, I’ll have to pretend to be super paranoid about Thiago having an idol -_____- But that seems like nothing now, with all this new stuff arising.
I FEEL SO BAD!!!!!!! Ugh, this is so terrible. It’s just SO awkward, because it’s like, we both know what happened with him and Chase talking to each other, and Chase telling me everything he said, and Knox getting mad about that….But me and Knox never talked about it, so it’s just like, weird now. Ugh. I still love Knox, just because I’ve known him for a while and I know he’s a sweet person. But I’m just having a lot of trouble with him in this game. He’s very, very hard to talk to because he’s so one wordy. I know part of that is because he’s kind of upset with me, but still, even when we’re talking on completely normal terms, he’s one wordy. And I honestly don’t know what else to say to him. ): Once again, awkward convo:
AJ (23:50:06): congrats on surviving the last vote
Knox O Pompillio (23:50:44): :-\
Knox O Pompillio (23:50:45): thanks
AJ (23:51:40): is everything okay? you seem kind of down
Knox O Pompillio (23:53:10): im sad about the last vote
AJ (23:53:59): Oh I'm so sorry. I have no idea what happened honestly =/
Knox O Pompillio (23:54:14): its okay, i just need to not listen to people
I wonder if he thinks I like, tried to sabotage him. Because I was pushing Selena so hard to vote out Luca, and then she didn’t. I wonder if Knox thinks it was some evil plan of mine =/
I do really like Mark and I think I’ll be able to trust him. We didn’t really get to talk tonight though. It’s hard for me to see where my relationship will go with him, but I do think that we’ll be able to stick together and trust each other on this tribe. I really just don’t know, though. Every time I’m talking to him, he always randomly disappears…
Ugh. Thiago seems excited we’re on the same tribe together. I do trust him for now, but I do know he’s reuniting with some of his old friends, which could be dangerous. I’m like seriously on the borderline of losing his trust though.
Thiago (23:43:11): actually talking to knox right now
Thiago (23:44:57): he said he didnt want to vote luca but he did and now he regrets it and ellen/luca are upset
Thiago (23:45:03): i'm feeling kinda bad for him
Thiago (23:45:45): but he's being vague as per the details
Thiago (23:45:57): he just says "people got involved" and selena backstabbed him
Thiago (23:48:26): he said people from our tribe told him that he had to vote for luca
Thiago (23:48:32): do you know who?? wtf
AJ (23:48:41): no, weird.......
Thiago (23:48:43): he won't give names
Oh my gosh. If Knox tells Thiago that it was Chase and I, I am so done!!!!! I feel so bad, seriously.
She didn’t respond to me at all tonight. So I don’t even know. She said this morning that she wanted to be on a tribe with me, but I think that was just kind of like just saying it to make sure she’s on my good side. So I really don’t know at all at this point.
So yeah, I’m not off to a great start on this tribe. I really miss Chase already, even though he doesn’t know when to close his mouth sometimes, I love him so much and he’s the best ally I could possibly have. It’s just so nice to have to that person you can trust 100%. But it’s whatever. I’ll have to deal without him.
I don’t think I’m like, completely screwed. I think I still have Henry and Mark on my side. But we’ll see what happens. If I go home, it’s totally my doing. I, 100%, dug my own grave, and I’ll have no one to blame but myself.
I miss my old tribe already.
Bye, old Legatu. It was a fun week.
New tribes night is supposed to be fun and exciting, right? Meeting the new people, reconnecting with the old, and just celebrating new start.
Nope, not at all. I’m just having a terrible night. I literally just signed off AIM because I was so upset. Well, I was about to sign off. I said goodnight to everyone, but then Luca told me not to go. So I went invisible and I’m only talking to him. I seriously love Luca so much.
I just feel so fucking terrible because of what happened last round. Legatu was safe from judgement, and so I should have just got off the computer and enjoyed the day off. I don’t know what got into me. But all I did was fuck up everything. Because of one comment from Chase about how we need to get Selena and Knox on the same page, I got way, way way too involved. And now I am in a huge mess. I’m in a huge mess in this game, and I’m also an internal mess because I feel so bad.
What’s making everything worse is that like, I have no one to talk to about it. Chase is gone for the night, and I really wish he wasn’t because I’m upset and need to talk to someone. I seriously almost just wanted to confess to Luca and tell him everything. But I don't know if that'd be good or bad. I mean probably good considering half my new tribe knows about what happened, so Luca is bound to find out soon. But I really can't bring myself to admit it to him. I just feel SO bad. Luca is seriously being so sweet to me. I can’t believe I tried to get him voted out. That was so low of me. He keeps telling me how he wanted to be on my tribe, and he almost got voted out last round and he was so upset but he’s glad to still be here…..Ugh. I feel SO bad.
Anyways, I guess I’ll just go through all of my new tribemates.
Ben and I have barely talked this whole game. Like we’ve said close to nothing to each other. We talked a tiny bit tonight, but nothing really much. But he was still being super sweet like always. So I don’t know what’s going to happen with us in this game; I have NO idea where his head is at or anything. But regardless, Ben will always have a special place in my heart. I seriously love him soooo much. He’s one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met, and that’s no exaggeration. I feel privileged to even have him as a friend.
Ugh, awkward already. Ellen is always sweet, but I know how she feels about me, and she knows how I feel about her. It’s not like I’m pretending to be nice, and I know she isn’t either because she really is a nice person. But it’s like, we both are so skeptical of each other and we know what the other one is really thinking in terms of game. It sucks. I wish so badly that we could just align, but I just feel like we’d always doubt each other. The convo got awkward real quick when she brought up the last vote.
Ellen Engelhardt (23:46:57): I'm glad really... just between you and me, I have felt this kind of ominous feeling like I'm being targeted behind the scenes
Ellen Engelhardt (23:48:00):
AJ (23:49:41): yeah that's definitely understandable, obviously everyone knows you're an amazing player
AJ (23:49:49): but i guess in a way everyone here is a good player in their own way
AJ (23:49:53): that's why we're here!
Ellen Engelhardt (23:50:00): it feels a little more personal than that but I see what you're saying!
Ellen Engelhardt (23:50:24): It wouldn't be All Stars without threats
AJ (23:52:22): i'm sure you would have been safe without immunity. haha. but i guess you never know
Ellen Engelhardt (23:53:14): Idk lol, Luca almost left because someone was pushing from behind the scenes
Ugh =/
I am SOOOOO glad Henry is on my new tribe. I would definitely say I trust him most, but that’s honestly not saying a lot because I don’t trust him completely. I’m just going to put most of my trust in him for now, though, and hope for the best. It’s really my only option. We didn’t get to talk much tonight, but hopefully we’ll be able to figure out a plan. Also, I’ll have to pretend to be super paranoid about Thiago having an idol -_____- But that seems like nothing now, with all this new stuff arising.
I FEEL SO BAD!!!!!!! Ugh, this is so terrible. It’s just SO awkward, because it’s like, we both know what happened with him and Chase talking to each other, and Chase telling me everything he said, and Knox getting mad about that….But me and Knox never talked about it, so it’s just like, weird now. Ugh. I still love Knox, just because I’ve known him for a while and I know he’s a sweet person. But I’m just having a lot of trouble with him in this game. He’s very, very hard to talk to because he’s so one wordy. I know part of that is because he’s kind of upset with me, but still, even when we’re talking on completely normal terms, he’s one wordy. And I honestly don’t know what else to say to him. ): Once again, awkward convo:
AJ (23:50:06): congrats on surviving the last vote
Knox O Pompillio (23:50:44): :-\
Knox O Pompillio (23:50:45): thanks
AJ (23:51:40): is everything okay? you seem kind of down
Knox O Pompillio (23:53:10): im sad about the last vote
AJ (23:53:59): Oh I'm so sorry. I have no idea what happened honestly =/
Knox O Pompillio (23:54:14): its okay, i just need to not listen to people
I wonder if he thinks I like, tried to sabotage him. Because I was pushing Selena so hard to vote out Luca, and then she didn’t. I wonder if Knox thinks it was some evil plan of mine =/
I do really like Mark and I think I’ll be able to trust him. We didn’t really get to talk tonight though. It’s hard for me to see where my relationship will go with him, but I do think that we’ll be able to stick together and trust each other on this tribe. I really just don’t know, though. Every time I’m talking to him, he always randomly disappears…
Ugh. Thiago seems excited we’re on the same tribe together. I do trust him for now, but I do know he’s reuniting with some of his old friends, which could be dangerous. I’m like seriously on the borderline of losing his trust though.
Thiago (23:43:11): actually talking to knox right now
Thiago (23:44:57): he said he didnt want to vote luca but he did and now he regrets it and ellen/luca are upset
Thiago (23:45:03): i'm feeling kinda bad for him
Thiago (23:45:45): but he's being vague as per the details
Thiago (23:45:57): he just says "people got involved" and selena backstabbed him
Thiago (23:48:26): he said people from our tribe told him that he had to vote for luca
Thiago (23:48:32): do you know who?? wtf
AJ (23:48:41): no, weird.......
Thiago (23:48:43): he won't give names
Oh my gosh. If Knox tells Thiago that it was Chase and I, I am so done!!!!! I feel so bad, seriously.
She didn’t respond to me at all tonight. So I don’t even know. She said this morning that she wanted to be on a tribe with me, but I think that was just kind of like just saying it to make sure she’s on my good side. So I really don’t know at all at this point.
So yeah, I’m not off to a great start on this tribe. I really miss Chase already, even though he doesn’t know when to close his mouth sometimes, I love him so much and he’s the best ally I could possibly have. It’s just so nice to have to that person you can trust 100%. But it’s whatever. I’ll have to deal without him.
I don’t think I’m like, completely screwed. I think I still have Henry and Mark on my side. But we’ll see what happens. If I go home, it’s totally my doing. I, 100%, dug my own grave, and I’ll have no one to blame but myself.
I miss my old tribe already.
Bye, old Legatu. It was a fun week.