Post by thiago on Jun 22, 2013 8:52:25 GMT -5
I'm finally finished my summer class for the summer so I'm much more available! I still work full time but I will keep the fact from people that I'm completely off school since that signifies an increase in activity.
At Judgment, Emily was voted out. To be honest, I was very saddened to see her leave. I've made it a rule to not involve myself in the votes of the other tribes. If they come to me with information about it, I'm happy to listen, but I'm not going to pry. I think it looks shady when your name gets thrown into the mix when retelling how things went before a Judgment vote, so I would rather keep my name associated with not-so-skeezy things.
Ellen had told me she saved Knox since he was going to leave. I think that Emily being voted off was a mistake for their tribe but we'll see how things turn out. Annie had expressed to me that she was, of course, quite disappointed with the vote. Even Henry told me that he liked Emily more than the other person on his season, that being Annie.
I really want to make an effort with AJ and Cassie as I feel they are in a good position in the tribe. Unless Henry/Quincy/Colleen wake up and want to make a move, I think being in with them will be advantageous. I believe that AJ/Cassie's target is so large that keeping them around will keep a target off myself come a swap situation. I am also aware of their issues with Ellen. Although I care about Ellen, I recognize that she is a threat, so I am not going to play my game to benefit hers. I have to play a game that will advance me.
I spoke with Cassie and she told me that things are totally cool with Chase now. This of course worries me because I was somewhat hoping that crack would either keep me safe or at least be something that bonded Cassie and myself, but now with her and Chase on good terms, Cassie/AJ/Chase working together is extremely possible. With Colleen being on a season with them, although AJ hinted that her and Colleen rarely speak and I know that Colleen is close to Ellen to an extent, and Henry having ties to AJ from some game she hosted, and Quincy having PW'd with all three of them, I do feel like I could still be a very easy target. I feel that I've come into this game with overwhelmingly unbeatable odds and I want to prove to myself that I can win even weeks after playing one of the best games I've personally ever played. I cannot play under the guise of an alias and the guise of being naive. They are all aware of my capabilities and this frightens me.
I decided to tell both AJ and Cassie that I was separately approached by two people about them being close, one saying that AJ/Cassie are in real life friends and the other saying that they text and talk on the phone almost every day. Now, the truth is that I have been approached by probably more than 4 or 5 people about the issue but I wanted to present it in a way that I could say that I had heard this and I wanted to hear the truth from them. Because I have really built up this persona of "I really don't know 90% of these people," which to an extent is true, I felt that coming to them about what they themselves are aware of as an obvious friendship comes across as genuine. I told them that I didn't have to say anything but I really have enjoyed them and I didn't want a seed planted in a my head that I didn't have confirmation about from them directly. I also said that for my own safety I didn't feel comfortable telling them who approached me with it, but that I felt both people were shady for coming to me with information like that as if they are trying to get involved in our tribe, and that I'm looking out for them in a way. They both confirmed that it's BS that they go to school together and seemed grateful that I came to them rathered than kept it to myself. I hope this establishes this makes them trust me more and will want to keep me around because I bring information to them.
This also opened up a conversation about Ellen, in which I said that I felt she fishes for information when she talks to me and that it's difficult for me to trust her given we didn't speak for quite a few years. They both said they were surprised to hear that from me and expressed their distrust in Ellen and that they had been worried Ellen had told me stuff because they heard that we are close. I hope that, to some degree, I've dispelled that concern with them. Of course, I did go back to Ellen and tell her, in which she seemed rather disappointed to hear that they are so against her. In my own way, I am trying to exaggerate the conflict between the two. Although I care about Ellen, I know that she is an emotional person, and by reminding her of things they are saying about her, I think she will play her game in a way to focus on eliminating Cassie/AJ, which will be beneficial to my game in the future, and also, in a way, sink Ellen's own game. Again, I love Ellen, but I'm playing for myself and I know that she is too.
Colleen had also mentioned to me that she thinks AJ/Cassie are very close which I found interesting. I try to chat with Colleen since most people don't seem to talk to her a lot. I do enjoy her but I wish she was a little less laid back and more open to speaking strategy. I think she downplays her abilities a lot and I wouldn't be surprised if maybe the reason she doesn't speak much strategy to me is because she feels she's in a solid alliance right now, or perhaps she really does feel totally on the outs. In any case, I want to play with her, but I'm waiting for her to play, or at least play with me.
Henry is really tough to talk to in my opinion. I don't really like talking to him that much. I find him rigid and a tad condescending. There's an ego there. I've dealt with worse so it's not tough for me to speak with him but I'm worried that we aren't connecting well enough for him to want to work with me explicitly.
Quincy really is my favourite. I do have concerns about his relationships with people, and I wish he was around more, but at this point I do feel like he is not as integrated as Ellen/Mark and I also feel like people wouldn't predict Quincy/I working together, which is what I need given that I'm being associated with obvious pairs (with Ellen and Mark). Mark and I worked so well together last season because nobody knew we were together, except Zac had his suspicions. I told Quincy I'd like to make us official and he was totally on board. We'll see how this partnership fairs.
Randomly, many clues came onto the forum and I asked Ellen and Mark about them. Ellen said she had been trying things, and Mark revealed to me that if I highlight the Idol Clues forum there are other clues! I then went to Ellen and told her. I'm not sure if she already knew or not but she played it off as if she didn't. We couldn't figure it out that night. We knew Esther was in Ellen's song (although Mark didn't know I was talking to Ellen about it, he had received Eduro's song information from Knox) and Abel/Cain was in mine and David and Goliath was in Mark's. However the acddeghks was a real mystery. The next day while at work Mark contacts me and tells me "TRY abelkillscain" and it didn't work. He explained to me that 3 letters from the list of 9 applied to each of the passwords. I found it a bit off that he knew my letters exactly and wonder if him and Ellen have been speaking at all. Anyway, I then told Ellen to try esther d-verb haman, in which she told me she already figured it out earlier. Again, I wish she had told me like Mark had and makes me a bit suspicious; however, she did then really try help me find verbs with k. My paranoid side wonders if Ellen knew my password and gave it to someone else on my tribe (like Quincy or Colleen), because low and behold, it already has been found! However, I trust Ellen wouldn't do that, but you can never be too sure.
Anyway, so my idol has been found, and I found out when Morgan expressed that there was an error in the 9 letters and that m should have been there instead of Cain. To be honest, of course I am disappointed because I could have had the password about 2 hour earlier than I had gotten inside, but that's just how the cookie crumbles sometimes and perhaps someone got into the forum even earlier than 3:30PM EDT (2:30 PM forum time).
I figured immediately that Henry found it. Oddly enough, Henry comes to me saying that he wants to work with people who have the idol and it seemed very off to me. We decided to work together on the clues I had already figured out, and I was trying to go slow with them but Henry kept guiding me in a way that told me that he had definitely gotten inside earlier. On top of that, he wasn't even on the forum when he was telling me things he was finding on the forum! At the end, Henry decided to drop the act and say that I got in earlier and didn't find it, and that I was online and he thinks I have it. I was like woah, I really don't have it. Of course I didn't admit that I had broken in earlier because I want to seem genuine, even if in trying to seem genuine he feels I am lying. I have to deny, deny, deny. It felt awkward because he seemed to want to work with me but under the circumstance that I found the idol, and with me not having it he felt that I don't serve the purpose he had hoped I serve. Things with Henry are very up in the air: does he think I still have the idol? Will he try vote me off? Does he want to work with me? Is he as alone as he suggests?
I suppose this means Chase or maybe Cassie has it. In any case, this is more of a reason to try and be in their good graces. I'm glad that I know where the other 2 idols are.
Mark also came to me and told me that Gloria told him that Annie wants Mark out because Mark and I are close. I don't believe it at all and think Gloria is making this up because Gloria doesn't like Annie, but Mark seemed to eat it up. I told him that it's an easy and clever lie for Gloria to tell, but based on my conversations with Annie, it wouldn't make sense for her to want to weaken me, and come to Gloria of all people to do it.
My biggest concern right now is secret alliances and people working together. I'm paranoid that people are talking about me and that maybe I'm doing too much talking. I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of players and I am just trying to survive every round. I am so thankful that our tribe won immunity again. We'll see what happens at Judgments!
At Judgment, Emily was voted out. To be honest, I was very saddened to see her leave. I've made it a rule to not involve myself in the votes of the other tribes. If they come to me with information about it, I'm happy to listen, but I'm not going to pry. I think it looks shady when your name gets thrown into the mix when retelling how things went before a Judgment vote, so I would rather keep my name associated with not-so-skeezy things.
Ellen had told me she saved Knox since he was going to leave. I think that Emily being voted off was a mistake for their tribe but we'll see how things turn out. Annie had expressed to me that she was, of course, quite disappointed with the vote. Even Henry told me that he liked Emily more than the other person on his season, that being Annie.
I really want to make an effort with AJ and Cassie as I feel they are in a good position in the tribe. Unless Henry/Quincy/Colleen wake up and want to make a move, I think being in with them will be advantageous. I believe that AJ/Cassie's target is so large that keeping them around will keep a target off myself come a swap situation. I am also aware of their issues with Ellen. Although I care about Ellen, I recognize that she is a threat, so I am not going to play my game to benefit hers. I have to play a game that will advance me.
I spoke with Cassie and she told me that things are totally cool with Chase now. This of course worries me because I was somewhat hoping that crack would either keep me safe or at least be something that bonded Cassie and myself, but now with her and Chase on good terms, Cassie/AJ/Chase working together is extremely possible. With Colleen being on a season with them, although AJ hinted that her and Colleen rarely speak and I know that Colleen is close to Ellen to an extent, and Henry having ties to AJ from some game she hosted, and Quincy having PW'd with all three of them, I do feel like I could still be a very easy target. I feel that I've come into this game with overwhelmingly unbeatable odds and I want to prove to myself that I can win even weeks after playing one of the best games I've personally ever played. I cannot play under the guise of an alias and the guise of being naive. They are all aware of my capabilities and this frightens me.
I decided to tell both AJ and Cassie that I was separately approached by two people about them being close, one saying that AJ/Cassie are in real life friends and the other saying that they text and talk on the phone almost every day. Now, the truth is that I have been approached by probably more than 4 or 5 people about the issue but I wanted to present it in a way that I could say that I had heard this and I wanted to hear the truth from them. Because I have really built up this persona of "I really don't know 90% of these people," which to an extent is true, I felt that coming to them about what they themselves are aware of as an obvious friendship comes across as genuine. I told them that I didn't have to say anything but I really have enjoyed them and I didn't want a seed planted in a my head that I didn't have confirmation about from them directly. I also said that for my own safety I didn't feel comfortable telling them who approached me with it, but that I felt both people were shady for coming to me with information like that as if they are trying to get involved in our tribe, and that I'm looking out for them in a way. They both confirmed that it's BS that they go to school together and seemed grateful that I came to them rathered than kept it to myself. I hope this establishes this makes them trust me more and will want to keep me around because I bring information to them.
This also opened up a conversation about Ellen, in which I said that I felt she fishes for information when she talks to me and that it's difficult for me to trust her given we didn't speak for quite a few years. They both said they were surprised to hear that from me and expressed their distrust in Ellen and that they had been worried Ellen had told me stuff because they heard that we are close. I hope that, to some degree, I've dispelled that concern with them. Of course, I did go back to Ellen and tell her, in which she seemed rather disappointed to hear that they are so against her. In my own way, I am trying to exaggerate the conflict between the two. Although I care about Ellen, I know that she is an emotional person, and by reminding her of things they are saying about her, I think she will play her game in a way to focus on eliminating Cassie/AJ, which will be beneficial to my game in the future, and also, in a way, sink Ellen's own game. Again, I love Ellen, but I'm playing for myself and I know that she is too.
Colleen had also mentioned to me that she thinks AJ/Cassie are very close which I found interesting. I try to chat with Colleen since most people don't seem to talk to her a lot. I do enjoy her but I wish she was a little less laid back and more open to speaking strategy. I think she downplays her abilities a lot and I wouldn't be surprised if maybe the reason she doesn't speak much strategy to me is because she feels she's in a solid alliance right now, or perhaps she really does feel totally on the outs. In any case, I want to play with her, but I'm waiting for her to play, or at least play with me.
Henry is really tough to talk to in my opinion. I don't really like talking to him that much. I find him rigid and a tad condescending. There's an ego there. I've dealt with worse so it's not tough for me to speak with him but I'm worried that we aren't connecting well enough for him to want to work with me explicitly.
Quincy really is my favourite. I do have concerns about his relationships with people, and I wish he was around more, but at this point I do feel like he is not as integrated as Ellen/Mark and I also feel like people wouldn't predict Quincy/I working together, which is what I need given that I'm being associated with obvious pairs (with Ellen and Mark). Mark and I worked so well together last season because nobody knew we were together, except Zac had his suspicions. I told Quincy I'd like to make us official and he was totally on board. We'll see how this partnership fairs.
Randomly, many clues came onto the forum and I asked Ellen and Mark about them. Ellen said she had been trying things, and Mark revealed to me that if I highlight the Idol Clues forum there are other clues! I then went to Ellen and told her. I'm not sure if she already knew or not but she played it off as if she didn't. We couldn't figure it out that night. We knew Esther was in Ellen's song (although Mark didn't know I was talking to Ellen about it, he had received Eduro's song information from Knox) and Abel/Cain was in mine and David and Goliath was in Mark's. However the acddeghks was a real mystery. The next day while at work Mark contacts me and tells me "TRY abelkillscain" and it didn't work. He explained to me that 3 letters from the list of 9 applied to each of the passwords. I found it a bit off that he knew my letters exactly and wonder if him and Ellen have been speaking at all. Anyway, I then told Ellen to try esther d-verb haman, in which she told me she already figured it out earlier. Again, I wish she had told me like Mark had and makes me a bit suspicious; however, she did then really try help me find verbs with k. My paranoid side wonders if Ellen knew my password and gave it to someone else on my tribe (like Quincy or Colleen), because low and behold, it already has been found! However, I trust Ellen wouldn't do that, but you can never be too sure.
Anyway, so my idol has been found, and I found out when Morgan expressed that there was an error in the 9 letters and that m should have been there instead of Cain. To be honest, of course I am disappointed because I could have had the password about 2 hour earlier than I had gotten inside, but that's just how the cookie crumbles sometimes and perhaps someone got into the forum even earlier than 3:30PM EDT (2:30 PM forum time).
I figured immediately that Henry found it. Oddly enough, Henry comes to me saying that he wants to work with people who have the idol and it seemed very off to me. We decided to work together on the clues I had already figured out, and I was trying to go slow with them but Henry kept guiding me in a way that told me that he had definitely gotten inside earlier. On top of that, he wasn't even on the forum when he was telling me things he was finding on the forum! At the end, Henry decided to drop the act and say that I got in earlier and didn't find it, and that I was online and he thinks I have it. I was like woah, I really don't have it. Of course I didn't admit that I had broken in earlier because I want to seem genuine, even if in trying to seem genuine he feels I am lying. I have to deny, deny, deny. It felt awkward because he seemed to want to work with me but under the circumstance that I found the idol, and with me not having it he felt that I don't serve the purpose he had hoped I serve. Things with Henry are very up in the air: does he think I still have the idol? Will he try vote me off? Does he want to work with me? Is he as alone as he suggests?
I suppose this means Chase or maybe Cassie has it. In any case, this is more of a reason to try and be in their good graces. I'm glad that I know where the other 2 idols are.
Mark also came to me and told me that Gloria told him that Annie wants Mark out because Mark and I are close. I don't believe it at all and think Gloria is making this up because Gloria doesn't like Annie, but Mark seemed to eat it up. I told him that it's an easy and clever lie for Gloria to tell, but based on my conversations with Annie, it wouldn't make sense for her to want to weaken me, and come to Gloria of all people to do it.
My biggest concern right now is secret alliances and people working together. I'm paranoid that people are talking about me and that maybe I'm doing too much talking. I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of players and I am just trying to survive every round. I am so thankful that our tribe won immunity again. We'll see what happens at Judgments!