Post by ellen on Jun 21, 2013 17:47:08 GMT -5
6/21/13
I've been friends with Thiago for years, since way before either of us participated in our original seasons. Naturally that fact has been a cause of concern for some people. It's perfectly justifiable. After all, we're considered to be two of the best players in this series; if we teamed up, we'd have the potential to do some real damage.
The truth is that I did want to work with Thiago in this game, as least initially, but now I'm starting to think otherwise.
He's acting really weird. I don't know... the thing that alarms me the most is this uncomfortably suspicious habit that he's picked up recently. He'll bring me little snippets of information that he's heard... nothing really major but little things that would easily escalate my paranoia and distrust in others. At first I appreciated it because it seemed as though Thiago was being a good friend, reporting all of this back to me, but it's all beginning to feel a little bit off.
The way he frames the information is just odd. It's almost like he's over embellishing or leaving things out in an attempt to rattle me. I don't know, maybe I'm just paranoid...
He tells me these things which he knows will hurt my feelings, and he's been doing it in excess. Usually it's something catty or backhanded that AJ or Cassie have apparently said about me, which seems trivial of course, but there's just so much of it. It really wouldn't shock me to learn that he's actually goading them on behind the scenes. Ammunition for later, right? Lather, rinse, repeat the cycle.
Thiago even told me about how he feels bad that he has to bash me to AJ and Cassie in order to fit in on Legatu, but why would he help project negative rumors about someone that he claims is his friend?
What makes even less sense is that I played with AJ in my original season, and I know Cassie, and this doesn't sound like them at all... my gut is just telling me that there is way more to the whole situation than he's letting on, but maybe not.
Thiago might not have lit the fire that has me so targeted in this game, but I can't shake the uneasy feeling that he's pouring a lot of gasoline on the flames. All the while, he stays in the middle, unscathed and it honestly wouldn't surprise me if he was patting himself on the back right now.
I know that I should save face with Thiago and just pretend to be grateful for all that he's told me but I'm finding that to be a helluva lot easier said than done.
6/21/13
For this challenge, a lot of people on each of the tribes were floating around ideas about what the correct strategy should be. At first glance of course, the straight seems tempting, but when you consider that it's possible to post three to four times in a minute, the point dividends that can be acquired are actually huge and the reward for catching one of each ball is pretty minuscule in comparison.
So, really the most straight forward and efficient thing to do, which maximizes your point potential and doesn't require any confusing footwork juggling multiple balls, would be to throw and catch the smallest valued balls as many times as possible.
6/22/13
Losing again is so demoralizing... especially considering that we had the smartest strategy, we just waited too long to implement it.
I'm just distraught over the idea of another Judgment. I really adore everyone left. I have deals with Knox and Selena, and of course Luca and I are a package deal... so the spotlight is naturally on Hannah and it's breaking my heart.
I've grown to really adore her. She's worked her ass off so far and she honestly doesn't deserve to go. My biggest concern however, is a shuffling of the tribes. We all think it's coming, and heading into it, Hannah has the potential to cause the most problems.
There's just a lot of inexplicable information flow out of our camp right now. Knowing that Hannah is really tight with certain people outside the tribe, that worries me. Of course, all five of us have bonds that reach beyond the scope of Eduro, so she's done nothing wrong in that sense, but I worry about her ties the most because I believe them to be the strongest and the most unbreakable. I feel like everything that I tell Hannah is getting back to other players in the game and that honestly scares me.
I believe that Hannah has my back right now, but I think that she'll be easily swayed away from me if certain people get into her ear. It's going to be with a heavy heart, but at this point, I'm writing her name down at tonight's Judgment.
6/22/13
Gloria has lost her marbles. There's no other way to describe it. She's got this glazed over look in her eyes and you can just tell that she's gone completely insane.
She's spreading drama, spilling secrets and bold faced lying to the people that she's supposed to be aligned with. The last time I checked, that wasn't good gameplay.
The problem is, for whatever reason, Gloria hates Mark; she also knows that he doesn't trust her. To Mark's credit why would he? She did lie to him last round and he found out about it... so yeah.
She's insisting now on some plan to blindside Mark, which Dominic is pretty firmly against. Luca and I weren't completely receptive to her plan either, so now she's pissed off, thinking that her voice isn't being heard, and has taken it upon herself to find the votes with or without our blessing.
If anyone caught a glimpse of the past two seasons, then they know at least one thing about Gloria: she's stubborn as a mule. Once she decides that she's going to do something, there's no changing her mind. The problem is, she doesn't have the votes to get Mark out.
We're all wary of Mark and his HII, but timing is everything in this game. In her attempt to rally Ben, Michael and Wendy to vote her way, she's really just buying herself a one way ticket to pre-jury... and if Gloria goes, she's the kind of player who will try and take a lot of people down with her.
6/22/13
Coming into this game, I knew something felt very off... I just couldn't place it though. I've had this awful feeling, like I'm exposed, in a wide open space, and snipers are trying to shoot at me from every direction. I felt a little bit foolish for being so ill at ease, but I guess I was right to be scared.
Dominic and I had a big heart to heart this morning. Regarding Dominic, I honestly feel so awful about what happened between him and I in Season 3. I backstabbed him and it was shitty of me. I feel like if anyone has a right to hate me, it's probably him, but he doesn't. He's a good friend and I'm so thankful for him right now.
A bit of backstory, I've always known that AJ had some weird thing against me, ever since we first played together. Apart from voting her out last time though, I don't know what I ever did to make her feel such hatred for me. And it's not just AJ, there's a definite air of animosity that is lingering around. I feel like I always tried to treat people with respect in my season... but I must have done something really wrong because apparently I pissed a lot of people off...
I guess there really has been some sort of behind the scenes push to ruin me in this game. The Army Against Ellen, as I guess it's being called, is a real thing... and it's being led by none other than AJ (surprise!) and... wait for it... Chase (I know right, WTF?!?!?!) Chase spilled everything to Dominic last night. He warned Dom that he'd be better suited to disassociate himself from me , because being friends with me in this game is apparently a death sentence.
Dom said that Chase apparently thinks that I'm some sort of malicious, evil player and that he's furious because he would have loved nothing more than for me to go first in this game. The fact that I keep winning Individual Immunity really seems to upset him. If I hadn't been safe, I'm sure there would have been a huge push from beyond our tribe to meddle in Judgment so that I would leave.
My jaw hit the floor when I heard all of this. I expected it from AJ, but Chase, I really had no clue that he hated me so much. I feel really hurt because the things that they're saying about me just aren't true. I feel like I am a good person... I am by no means perfect but I don't think that I've done anything to warrant this. I just want to curl up right now and forget about everything.
I've been friends with Thiago for years, since way before either of us participated in our original seasons. Naturally that fact has been a cause of concern for some people. It's perfectly justifiable. After all, we're considered to be two of the best players in this series; if we teamed up, we'd have the potential to do some real damage.
The truth is that I did want to work with Thiago in this game, as least initially, but now I'm starting to think otherwise.
He's acting really weird. I don't know... the thing that alarms me the most is this uncomfortably suspicious habit that he's picked up recently. He'll bring me little snippets of information that he's heard... nothing really major but little things that would easily escalate my paranoia and distrust in others. At first I appreciated it because it seemed as though Thiago was being a good friend, reporting all of this back to me, but it's all beginning to feel a little bit off.
The way he frames the information is just odd. It's almost like he's over embellishing or leaving things out in an attempt to rattle me. I don't know, maybe I'm just paranoid...
He tells me these things which he knows will hurt my feelings, and he's been doing it in excess. Usually it's something catty or backhanded that AJ or Cassie have apparently said about me, which seems trivial of course, but there's just so much of it. It really wouldn't shock me to learn that he's actually goading them on behind the scenes. Ammunition for later, right? Lather, rinse, repeat the cycle.
Thiago even told me about how he feels bad that he has to bash me to AJ and Cassie in order to fit in on Legatu, but why would he help project negative rumors about someone that he claims is his friend?
What makes even less sense is that I played with AJ in my original season, and I know Cassie, and this doesn't sound like them at all... my gut is just telling me that there is way more to the whole situation than he's letting on, but maybe not.
Thiago might not have lit the fire that has me so targeted in this game, but I can't shake the uneasy feeling that he's pouring a lot of gasoline on the flames. All the while, he stays in the middle, unscathed and it honestly wouldn't surprise me if he was patting himself on the back right now.
I know that I should save face with Thiago and just pretend to be grateful for all that he's told me but I'm finding that to be a helluva lot easier said than done.
6/21/13
For this challenge, a lot of people on each of the tribes were floating around ideas about what the correct strategy should be. At first glance of course, the straight seems tempting, but when you consider that it's possible to post three to four times in a minute, the point dividends that can be acquired are actually huge and the reward for catching one of each ball is pretty minuscule in comparison.
So, really the most straight forward and efficient thing to do, which maximizes your point potential and doesn't require any confusing footwork juggling multiple balls, would be to throw and catch the smallest valued balls as many times as possible.
6/22/13
Losing again is so demoralizing... especially considering that we had the smartest strategy, we just waited too long to implement it.
I'm just distraught over the idea of another Judgment. I really adore everyone left. I have deals with Knox and Selena, and of course Luca and I are a package deal... so the spotlight is naturally on Hannah and it's breaking my heart.
I've grown to really adore her. She's worked her ass off so far and she honestly doesn't deserve to go. My biggest concern however, is a shuffling of the tribes. We all think it's coming, and heading into it, Hannah has the potential to cause the most problems.
There's just a lot of inexplicable information flow out of our camp right now. Knowing that Hannah is really tight with certain people outside the tribe, that worries me. Of course, all five of us have bonds that reach beyond the scope of Eduro, so she's done nothing wrong in that sense, but I worry about her ties the most because I believe them to be the strongest and the most unbreakable. I feel like everything that I tell Hannah is getting back to other players in the game and that honestly scares me.
I believe that Hannah has my back right now, but I think that she'll be easily swayed away from me if certain people get into her ear. It's going to be with a heavy heart, but at this point, I'm writing her name down at tonight's Judgment.
6/22/13
Gloria has lost her marbles. There's no other way to describe it. She's got this glazed over look in her eyes and you can just tell that she's gone completely insane.
She's spreading drama, spilling secrets and bold faced lying to the people that she's supposed to be aligned with. The last time I checked, that wasn't good gameplay.
The problem is, for whatever reason, Gloria hates Mark; she also knows that he doesn't trust her. To Mark's credit why would he? She did lie to him last round and he found out about it... so yeah.
She's insisting now on some plan to blindside Mark, which Dominic is pretty firmly against. Luca and I weren't completely receptive to her plan either, so now she's pissed off, thinking that her voice isn't being heard, and has taken it upon herself to find the votes with or without our blessing.
If anyone caught a glimpse of the past two seasons, then they know at least one thing about Gloria: she's stubborn as a mule. Once she decides that she's going to do something, there's no changing her mind. The problem is, she doesn't have the votes to get Mark out.
We're all wary of Mark and his HII, but timing is everything in this game. In her attempt to rally Ben, Michael and Wendy to vote her way, she's really just buying herself a one way ticket to pre-jury... and if Gloria goes, she's the kind of player who will try and take a lot of people down with her.
6/22/13
Coming into this game, I knew something felt very off... I just couldn't place it though. I've had this awful feeling, like I'm exposed, in a wide open space, and snipers are trying to shoot at me from every direction. I felt a little bit foolish for being so ill at ease, but I guess I was right to be scared.
Dominic and I had a big heart to heart this morning. Regarding Dominic, I honestly feel so awful about what happened between him and I in Season 3. I backstabbed him and it was shitty of me. I feel like if anyone has a right to hate me, it's probably him, but he doesn't. He's a good friend and I'm so thankful for him right now.
A bit of backstory, I've always known that AJ had some weird thing against me, ever since we first played together. Apart from voting her out last time though, I don't know what I ever did to make her feel such hatred for me. And it's not just AJ, there's a definite air of animosity that is lingering around. I feel like I always tried to treat people with respect in my season... but I must have done something really wrong because apparently I pissed a lot of people off...
I guess there really has been some sort of behind the scenes push to ruin me in this game. The Army Against Ellen, as I guess it's being called, is a real thing... and it's being led by none other than AJ (surprise!) and... wait for it... Chase (I know right, WTF?!?!?!) Chase spilled everything to Dominic last night. He warned Dom that he'd be better suited to disassociate himself from me , because being friends with me in this game is apparently a death sentence.
Dom said that Chase apparently thinks that I'm some sort of malicious, evil player and that he's furious because he would have loved nothing more than for me to go first in this game. The fact that I keep winning Individual Immunity really seems to upset him. If I hadn't been safe, I'm sure there would have been a huge push from beyond our tribe to meddle in Judgment so that I would leave.
My jaw hit the floor when I heard all of this. I expected it from AJ, but Chase, I really had no clue that he hated me so much. I feel really hurt because the things that they're saying about me just aren't true. I feel like I am a good person... I am by no means perfect but I don't think that I've done anything to warrant this. I just want to curl up right now and forget about everything.
