Confessional

[ben]

Mark bitched me out again lmao aint nobody got time for that

Wanted Thiago out awk @ him winning immunity

Ty Selena for messing up and giving me immunity <3 yay

Anyway Knox Wendy AJ Mark vulnerable, my least relationship is with Knox so imma vote him kk

[ben]

We lost immunity which didn't surprise me but it sucks because if we had found the idol, or if Ellen hadn't used the idol last round (and we just voted Wendy) then all 3 of me, her, and Colleen would be safe. Ellen would have immunity, Colleen could play the idol, and if AJ/Cassie/Mark voted for me, then I'd be immune in the purple rock. But oh well, we gotta make due with what we have, I have a gut feeling Colleen will leave tonight but I hope not.

I'm voting for AJ because she has annoyed me this game by distrusting me and being completely fake with me and lumping me in with everyone just as everyone else did. It's whatever though, it's what I expected. AJ is also the most likely to draw a rock for someone else and she is also the least likely to use an idol, so here goes nothing!

[ben]

Wow. That went perfectly so far but everyone is already celebrating and I'm still freaking out. If Mark votes Colleen out (again) then I will have a 50/50 chance of going home and I don't like those odds. I would never vote Colleen out anyway so I already went ahead and voted, but now it's time to convince Mark to do so as well. I hope he doesn't put his game on 50/50 odds, which I can't imagine he would? I feel like he isn't thaaat close to them but idk. I'm gonna promise him the world to get him not to. I think he knows 100% I won't vote Colleen out anyway so the ball is in his playing field. Time to send him a message.

[ben]

Hey buddy

Markkkk. Sorry for not telling you who we were voting, I couldn't risk Colleen's life in the game with the idol in the game. I didn't want the idol to wind up being played on AJ and then Colleen to go. I adore AJ but she has left me in the dark for the majority of the game, and I guess I understand where you're coming from by me doing similar techniques to you. I do believe people expect me to constantly vote with them but that's not the case in my eyes. There are certain people I don't want to go, that my "group" may want to go, and I won't go through with it - you are one of those people and I will keep you safe, and when the time comes I do want to work with you. The thing is that I can not and will not vote for Colleen... but I have said the same for you and don't want to risk you in a purple rock. That only leaves one solution for me, since only you, Colleen, or AJ can go (from my perspective), so I have to go for AJ. I'm voting for AJ once again in the re-vote, and I hope you do as well but as I said, I am willing to draw a rock for Colleen at this point. I would for you as well, if the situation was reversed. Good luck with your decision, I hope we don't have to draw rocks 50/50 between us.

[ben]

Adding:

I will be up a bit longer if you come around but I plan on voting before bed, since I have to work tomorrow until after the deadline ugh.

[ben]

You have backed me in a corner in a most disgusting way. I have struggled from day one to keep my head above water in this game because I don't have the time, it's caused a few arguments with my wife, a trip landed right at the most crucial time, and I didn't know anyone in this cast with the exception of FOUR of the five other season five returnees. Two of them I would just as soon never face in a game again. But no I gave in. You are the only one that pressured me to play. Everyone else told me to take my previous success and walk away. I feel humiliated and stupid and I don't have any desire to continue on in this game if I know I just gave in and got rid of AJ just because she's been made into the figurehead of anti Ellen. I believe she's been vilified because a certain few people have found it appalling that they could possibly be targeted so early in a game and have made themselves martyrs. It's like I told Ellen to her face, anyone can be rightfully targeted in this game at any time. No one is special...not even Ellen. I know that's a tough pill to swallow. So no, I will not cave and just vote AJ out.

You know what really grates on me? I rarely play these stupid games. So I don't have any "Colleens" that I would risk my life for, thus changing the landscape of a game for everyone else. Must be nice, huh? Especially when you haven't cared enough to get into this game. It really sucks and it really hurts. I know you will never see it from my perspective, but you are continuously in these games, so I guess it makes you callous.

You have hurt me, Cody. You and Thiago both.

Good luck with your rock.

Dude you're not the only one with little to no time, welcome to my life. At least when you are low on time you aren't encouraged to quit by friends.

Regardless, I fail to see how I have caused you so much stress. Quit blaming all of your problems on me and quit with your mind games. They worked last season and I'm not letting them work this season. I have done NOTHING to you or to cause you so much anger. I like AJ as well, and I hated voting her out but I will choose you and Colleen over her any day, and yeah - I will choose Colleen over anyone so of course I will go to purple rock for her.

Furthermore you can say I've kept you in the dark this game but you've done the same thing from my perspective, so quit trying to guilt trip me because it's annoyed me since last season. Yeah sure Dominic sent Ellen info on how to get the idol, but you know what's funny? I had no part in any of this so you are just another one of them who lumps me in with everyone else. Also, you did the same exact thing to others (Knox/Thiago) to give them info on how to get the idol. The difference is I understand and you had a right to, I didn't get mad at you and I didn't lose trust in you. I didn't even DO IT, and you still laid into me about how much I fail to tell you or fail to keep you informed. I didn't even DO ANYTHING and you STILL look for reasons to distrust me. All it's done all season long is prove that you DON'T trust me, so yeah of course I am going to look for other options as well.

I've known Colleen for five years so of course I would risk a purple rock for her. I know it may seem like I don't care for the game, but that's actually been part of my strategy. Last season I was targeted because I cared too much, and now you encouraged me to quit so you can all advance? That was hurtful, so you're not the only one with feelings in this game, or the only one who has been used or hurt by people you care for. Good luck with the rock, and good-bye since one of us is leaving then.

[ben]

Mark Jeffcoat
11:40:48 You got your rock, you cool with it?

cataclysmiccornucopia
11:40:57 yeah? lol

Mark Jeffcoat
11:42:21 I'm not, just so you know
11:42:28 I hope you're proud of the corner you backed me in

cataclysmiccornucopia
11:43:15 ive backed you in no corners. if you dont want to take a rock then dont. im not telling you to do anything

Mark Jeffcoat
11:43:56 Only way I don't take a rock is if I save your precious friendship with Colleen

cataclysmiccornucopia
11:44:58 indeed

Mark Jeffcoat
11:45:22 So yes, you backed me in a corner and it's disgusting how you used your apathy for the game not only to reel me in but play altogether
11:45:32 You are a visiting human being

cataclysmiccornucopia
11:45:34 i never plan on voting colleen out, i've known her for 5 years. we have voted each other out before don't get me around but she's done nothing to me

Mark Jeffcoat
11:45:37 Disgusting

cataclysmiccornucopia
11:45:48 xcuse me
11:46:16 you can blame all your problems on me if you want but it will get you no where

cataclysmiccornucopia
12:04:21 what do you mean by im a visiting human being anyway?

Mark Jeffcoat
12:17:22 Disgusting...auto correct

cataclysmiccornucopia
12:18:42 oh im a disgusting human being cool thanks!

Mark Jeffcoat
12:19:50 Yes...You told Ellen everything I said regarding Thiago, thus driving a wedge between us in the process
12:20:00 So be proud of that
12:20:17 Be proud that you and Ellen goat in your pre game crap
12:20:24 Disgusting
12:20:38 You are dead to me
12:20:44 Mark Jeffcoat disconnected

cataclysmiccornucopia
12:20:54 o ok
12:21:14 I dont even know what you told me for me to tell Ellen regarding Thiago but w/e keep playing victim bruh

[ben]

Really? You clearly don't know me at all. Don't act like you're completely innocent in the matter. I've done absolutely nothing to deserve such treatment from you. Yeah, I didn't tell you everything but you didn't tell me everything either. Were we ever a final 2 alliance? No? So don't act like I'm your bitch because I'm not, and I have a right to do things outside of our alliance. Yeah I wanted to work with you, yeah I still do. Yeah, I wanted you to play this game, yeah I still do. You take this game too seriously if you can honestly say someone is a disgusting person from it, especially when they have done nothing to deserve it.

You consistently guilt trip me for things I didn't even do. Yeah, I am close to Ellen but I don't even know what the heck you're talking about when it comes to you and Thiago. If you mean the whole situation regarding you telling Knox and Thiago (and I'm just finding out about today, apparently Chase) how to find the idol, then I had no part in that. Thiago is the one who told Ellen this information, and I don't know what the heck I did to drive a wedge between you and anyone. Sure, you can play victim all you want but I did nothing to hurt you other than try to protect Colleen.

If protecting Colleen makes me a disgusting person, then sign me right up. If protecting my friends is disgusting, then I don't want to be cleansed. You act like you're so high and mighty, that you're above all of the drama of the game, and that you're totally innocent of all charges, when you've done the exact same things. Thiago even admitted you told him how to find the idol, so if that is part of the reason why you distrust me (for something I didn't even do) then you're guilty of the same charges so please, do not act like you're some saint when you're clearly not.

If I am a disgusting person, then so are you, because you are doing the exact same things you accuse me of. You say I have used apathy and empathy to my advantage to use you and your emotions? You know what's funny? You're doing the same exact thing to me RIGHT NOW in an attempt to guilt trip me into feeling bad for you. You know what? I don't. I don't feel bad for a single thing I have done in this game because I've followed my heart and you clearly don't give a crap about me. Now if you want to go to rocks, be my guest. I voted last night and am not changing, so it's up to you. Don't prolong the inevitable if your mind is already made up, and stop playing mind tricks on me when they're futile since I'm not changing. Good luck with your decision and I hope we can remain friends after all is said and done because I care for you and I'm sorry if you truly feel I have hurt you, but I feel I have done nothing to deserve such treatment from you.

Also sorry if this PM sounds so harsh but you calling me a disgusting person and saying I'm dead to you really rubs me the wrong way when I feel we have done similar things in this game and the only difference is I'm not blaming you for playing the game and you seem to believe I have been out to get you or something in this game when I haven't...

[ben]

I want to scream- GET OVER YOURSELF.

[ben]

OH MY GODDDDD. ;D

[ben]

Jul 7, 2013 14:36:40 GMT -5 ben said:

Yet by you saying that, you are inherently pointing fingers when I'm pretty sure both "sides" are guilty of the same things.

Except one side made an image of Ellen with devil horns and AJ with angel wings so CLEARLY our side is the one vilifying the other side.... Get fucked dude

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So I don't lose them myself (or forget to PM them)

1 www.gvse6.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=c8legatu&thread=742&page=1#12698

2 www.gvse6.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=c8legatu&thread=780&page=1#12771

3 www.gvse6.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=c8legatu&thread=825&page=1#12882

4 www.gvse6.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=c8legatu&thread=1297&page=1#14123

5 www.gvse6.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=c8legatu&thread=1404&page=1#14476

6 www.gvse6.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=c8legatu&thread=1284&page=7#14823

[ben]

So I wake up today and notice there's a new idol + clue, so I try to contact Ellen but she's MIA so I begin to study for it. When she returns were Skype and piece together some puzzle pieces to deduct what it could be. She immediately guessed Stephen King after the first half of the clue... Wrong. We felt like the bottom theme could be Rook, but we weren't sure what the Raven/Crow had to do with it... so I found out the bird was actually known as a "Rook" which confirmed our theory. Stephen King + Rook = Rook and King, so chess pieces. Dominic recognized these two pieces put together is called Castling in chess, so I guessed it, only to be hit with a horrible realization- AJ or Cassie has already found the idol.

We no longer wanted to throw immunity because that would just mean that AJ or Cassie could win individual immunity and the other could use the idol and Ellen, Colleen, or I would go home- no good. We kicked it into high gear, and once Ellen was DQ'd, I put my game face on and finished it up, so we won immunity - with help of Dominic and Luca of course- thanks guys! <3

Now Dominic is immune and they have 67% odds of surviving, whoever draws the PR (if it goes to that...). Yay! Not so bad. Fingers crossed.

[ben]

This round is basically double or nothing because if they pull the purple rock, we are up by 2 instead of 1. If we draw the purple rock, it's about even again - except they have the idol. ;-; This is gonna be cray

[ben]

oh well this is awkward #suckssss

It's not game over it's just game on, I guess.