Post by aj on Aug 6, 2013 17:59:24 GMT -5
Wow, the big day is finally here. GVSE All Stars ends tonight.
I don’t really have a lot on my mind, actually. I think pretty much every thought I’ve had in the past 52 days is somewhere in this confessional.
I mentioned this in my last post, but I'll say again that I actually went back and read my entire confessional. And truthfully, I am rather humiliated at how emotional every post of mine is. I think I talked more about my emotional problems than I did about strategy…I wish that I wasn’t like that. I wish I could just make game decisions and not look back on it. But I guess that wouldn’t be the real me. At least I can say honestly that this confessional is 100% me, whether it’s respectable or not. As much as it hurt to hear, Mark nailed it in his finale comments to me; I agonized over every decision, when I should have just owned it. Ugh, it’s honestly going to be hard for me to look back on this. But like I’ve mentioned before, I’m just at a weird phase in my life where I’m old enough to feel a lot of real emotion, but young enough where I’m still immature and I care too much. I guess I can’t blame myself for that.
Winning the game tonight would of course be amazing (it would be a nice birthday present!) however, if Thiago wins like I am expecting, I am honestly okay with it. He’s definitely a deserving winner, and I’ll be happy for him. I can't wait to continue my friendship with him (and everyone else) after this.
I’ve said this like a thousand times, but I seriously love every single person here. If these people loathe AJ, that’s fine, but I just hope they’ll give Kirin a second chance.
I’ve learned a lot from this game. I don’t know when I’ll be playing another ORG, but when I do, there's a lot of things from here that I will take with me to my future ORGs. I feel like I’ve really grown as both a player and a person. I’m so grateful that Knox shaped my thinking to taking this as a process of self-growth, because it’s really caused me to think about this game in a larger context.
But yeah, I’m pretty much just rambling now. To end things on a positive note, here are some of my favorite memories from the game:
Anyways, I am ready for tonight and I'm just hoping that the aftermath of this game is mostly positive.
Thank you Justin for EVERYTHING!!!!
AJ out!
I don’t really have a lot on my mind, actually. I think pretty much every thought I’ve had in the past 52 days is somewhere in this confessional.
I mentioned this in my last post, but I'll say again that I actually went back and read my entire confessional. And truthfully, I am rather humiliated at how emotional every post of mine is. I think I talked more about my emotional problems than I did about strategy…I wish that I wasn’t like that. I wish I could just make game decisions and not look back on it. But I guess that wouldn’t be the real me. At least I can say honestly that this confessional is 100% me, whether it’s respectable or not. As much as it hurt to hear, Mark nailed it in his finale comments to me; I agonized over every decision, when I should have just owned it. Ugh, it’s honestly going to be hard for me to look back on this. But like I’ve mentioned before, I’m just at a weird phase in my life where I’m old enough to feel a lot of real emotion, but young enough where I’m still immature and I care too much. I guess I can’t blame myself for that.
Winning the game tonight would of course be amazing (it would be a nice birthday present!) however, if Thiago wins like I am expecting, I am honestly okay with it. He’s definitely a deserving winner, and I’ll be happy for him. I can't wait to continue my friendship with him (and everyone else) after this.
I’ve said this like a thousand times, but I seriously love every single person here. If these people loathe AJ, that’s fine, but I just hope they’ll give Kirin a second chance.
I’ve learned a lot from this game. I don’t know when I’ll be playing another ORG, but when I do, there's a lot of things from here that I will take with me to my future ORGs. I feel like I’ve really grown as both a player and a person. I’m so grateful that Knox shaped my thinking to taking this as a process of self-growth, because it’s really caused me to think about this game in a larger context.
But yeah, I’m pretty much just rambling now. To end things on a positive note, here are some of my favorite memories from the game:
- Our whole Legatu tribe working together on the second immunity challenge on a google doc.
- Over half our Legatu tribe being online at 7:30 in the morning lol
- Chase finding the HII, and being on Skype with him as he admitted to Henry that he had it.
- Knox and I G-Hanging with Wendy when Ben randomly becomes immune and we’re stuck in the call with her when we’re voting her out…
- Our first group G-Hang call when we all planned the Wendy vote.
- Cassie flipping out after she accidentally told Ellen that Mark played the idol on her
- Cassie and I finding the HII and freaking out
- Cassie and I not helping out in our tribe’s challenge at all and then winning immunity anyways
- Merging with all 5 of us, when we thought for sure one of Knox/Henry/Thiago would have gone home.
- Overcoming SUPER slim odds and accurately playing the idol on Knox and voting for someone without the idol!
- Pretty much every single JABBA G-Hang.
Anyways, I am ready for tonight and I'm just hoping that the aftermath of this game is mostly positive.
Thank you Justin for EVERYTHING!!!!
AJ out!
