Knox Remembers The Fallen

[knox]

Dominic... talk about complicated relationships.

Coming into this game, I was weary of you because you spoke very ill about me last season as you viewed. We seemed to click almost instantly which was weird to me, but our relationship would grow into something complicated and which would get me into trouble with a lot of people.

I was always very sincere with you, when we said our conversations would stay between us, I kept them between us. But I know that wasn't really a mutual thing, Henry constantly told me about all the things you told him I told you, which was genuinely upsetting for me, because I trusted you so blindly throughout the entire game.

Our relationship was so complicated because so many people constantly told me it was not genuine and how you were just using me because you thought I was dumb and naive. Now I know that it was true, but during the game it drove me insane to not know where we stood and the fact that I wanted to talk to you, but I was scared you would use it against me.

I don't think you are a villain at all, if anything you are misunderstood, but I do think you sometimes picked fights without needing to. And many times, mostly near the end, you were really condescending to me and made me feel like shit, which I understand since you were angry you were going home. For me, in this game, I think you were my biggest threat because I was extremely blinded by my adoration of you to see you as the amazing and threatening player you were.

I hope that once the game is fully over we can be close friends and stay up with each other. You are great and I am glad I got to know you, sorry we were never on the same side, but it was probably for the best because I would have never stood a chance against you in the end.

[knox]

When you were voted out I was beyond shocked, you were so confident that Thiago would vote with us that I was just completely dumbfounded.

I know a lot of people here view me as your bitch, and that I did everything for you. But I don't think they realize that our relationship was a two-side street, you told me as much as I told you. The difference was that I was actually better at not sharing it with people, I think, which is why people always thought I was just your puppet.

You are an extraordinary player, which is why I regret making a Final 3 deal with you. In all honesty, you being voted out was probably the best for me, as I now may have a shot at the victory [maybe]. I knew this all along, and you have no idea how conflicted I was about what I thought would be my vote at Final Four, I spend confessional after confessional debating whether to do the smart thing when we got there [vote you out] or keep true to myself and take you to the end even though I would never win.

Being able to grow as close as we did throughout this game is one of my highlights. You were a rock for me when I was going insane and you kept me in check while I kept the others in check. You are a genuinely great person and I am beyond glad we got to play this together, not only in the same side but as close allies. Thank you for being there for me all along, and for the amazing conversations we had.

I will see you in Chicago. I still owe you some shots!

[knox]

AJ! My beautiful, innocent friend. Words can not express how much I adore you, you are just a fantastic individual and I am super glad that we managed to reconnect through this game.

I still find it hilarious that people thought we were so close, since I don't think that was the case at all for most of the game. I mean hello, I tried to vote you out because you're such a jury threat!

You are adorable, and I am glad I was able to be here for you whenever you needed me. You are fantastic and I am happy we got to work together. I love you, and I know once this game is over we are just gonna become even closer!

[knox]

Boy AJ!

God, I adore you. I have to admit at the beginning when we were forced to look together, I was less than happy to work with you because we had never talked with you. But as time went by and we bonded I remembered why I adored you once upon a century.

Our constant bickering has always entertained me, and I always appreciated the way you kept me calm that one night, and hopefully I did the same when you needed me. I think that, strategically, you are the one who was more on my wave-length when it came to targets and ideas, which I always appreciated.

Furthermore, I enjoyed having you as my partner in crime when it came to bugging others in G-Hang and being obnoxious. Even if you always resort to the same insults

You're amazing, and I am glad we bonded and became as close as we did. Thanks for everything!

[knox]

Thiagooooo, I have to say when I came into this game I never expected to work with you for even a round. I actually wanted you gone way before the first switch, but you persevered and managed to make it to this spot.

I am glad we got to bond in a more personal level this time around, because I know that we are friends even besides this game and that makes me happy. I am also glad that you trusted me enough to allow me to help you through some rough patches, and that you did the same for me.

In all reality, in a game sense. I think you're terrific, however I also think that many times you lie unnecessarily which bothers me because I hate lying so much. I know we had a lot of disagreements here and there, mostly about how to approach things since you have a more cold and logical approach while I put my feelings forth all the time. But we worked well as a team, which was a nice surprise.

I am glad that we got to play together, and I hope that you didn't lie to me as much as you lied to others because that would be rather heartbreaking. I think your niceness and sensible side is true, and you were not lying about it like others may think. In conclusion, you’re a Kool-Aid dude!

[knox]

Well.... I kind of hate complimenting myself, because I feel really stupid. But I think that I am really proud of the way I have played this game.

This game has had a lot of ups and downs for me, being an extremely emotional player I think I had a much rougher time trying to balance relationships, with smart strategic moves and the fact that the social game was so reduced because of the sides we were all forced into.

I did some moves, and am proud of making it here, especially considering I didn't think I'd last more than five rounds. It is my hope that if I make it to the end I am given a shot at earning votes and not just shot down because people have a wrongful view of me.

But more than my game, I am very proud of the fact that I grew during this game. From being a cocky douche-bag last game I think I transformed into someone who is very aware of the way he comes across and is genuinely a good person. I managed to brush off some comments that would have sent me on a tailspin before, and grow from them.

I played an emotional game, but I am proud of what I achieved and I am glad of all the friends that I think I made. I think that my story on this series is much different than everyone else's and I am happy with the uniqueness, from being a douche who no one really liked, to learning how I am seen and trying to grow from it. If I earned the love and respect of the other players remains to be seen but it is my hope that that would be the case.

With this, I bid farewell to my memory down Memory Lane and pray that I will be able to reach the finals and plead my case to the jury.

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