Knox Remembers The Fallen

[knox]

From the very beginning, we clicked. I really enjoyed playing with you if only for one round. I was always against voting you out, as I knew you could help my game more in future rounds, but I allowed other people to influence my decisions and there seemed to be no way to save you.

You are truly a great player, and a class act. I am still saddened you didn't get to show your true potential this season.

[knox]

Coming into this game I was terrified of you. Your reputation truly precedes you, not only are you smart and cunning, but you are likeable as well. I remember you hated me last season so I was so scared to have to play with you, but we bonded a lot and I truly liked you. I was somewhat sad you left as early as you did. I wish we would have gotten to play together, or at least be on the same tribe.

However, I think that the fact you were the very first target is more a testament of how scared people were of you than anything you did wrong.

[knox]

Perry, Perry, Perry... I think that out of the people I met on this game you were the one I bonded with the least. You were a smart player, but I never really think we clicked.

The problem, I think, is that you always treated me like I was really dumb. When you told me about Luca and Ellen, I already knew about it. And you were right, of course, however there was no way I was going to vote out people who I had a better relationship over someone who had talked to me twice the whole game. It would have been ridiculous, but you made it easier for me to get my way even if it was one round too late.

[knox]

Hannah, God I feel like this is going to be a novel. So please bare with me as I ramble on...

Honestly I had never clicked so fast with anyone in an ORG, you and I have the same sense of humor, we have the same opinions about a lot of things and I loved our playful arguing back and forth where we were extremely inappropriate.

I wish you would have heard me that round and voted for Selena instead of Luca, if only to make my journey easier moving forward. But I know that your kind heart wanted to believe what had been promised to us despite my clear dislike for the plan at hand.

You are someone who I know is going to be a friend well after the game is over, and I wish you had not went when you did. You had so much to offer and even now I want nothing more but to be sitting here next to you. I told you I was going to play the game for both of us, and I am here now so I hope that you are proud of what I have done regardless of the end results.

Love you, homie!

[knox]

There is no doubt in my mind that out of the people I have met through ORG's you are by far my bestest friend. You are always there for me no matter what, you are so protective of me and even though we argue a lot about our views on certain people, I know that you have an absolutely beautiful soul and I am lucky to be able to consider you my friend.

In this game, you provided me with so much information that was crucial for my game. You helped me through your connections to go from a zero to someone people actually wanted to talk to. It is partially because of you that I am here today.

Your boot was both a blessing and a curse. It was awful because I know how much you loved this game and the way you went was something I did not agree on, but it was something that for my game to blossom had to happen. With you out of the picture, I was able to play my own game and not feel guilty about the "Gloria factor", it allowed me to branch out and to be perceived as an individual as opposed to just your side-kick.

You are an amazing competitor and a much better friend. Sorry for all the arguments we had, but I often times I feel like you are looking out for me so much that you forget how strong I am, and even underestimate me at times. I know, though, that it comes from the best place in your heart, so I don't resent you even if I often seem that way.

I love you hardcore. And that is why I will give you one final piece of advice that I know you will read once the season is over: don't take things so personal, I know you are angry right now, but I genuinely believe that they are not horrible people and it was all a big misunderstanding. Don't lose friends over and online game.

Love you so much, and I hope that even though I didn't do all that you wanted me to do you can be proud of where I am and what I have achieved.

[knox]

I never met you Quincy.
But I have heard amazing things about you, so I truly hope that you had fun in the game and you got what you wanted out of it.

[knox]

Oh, Chase...

You know, I loved playing this game with you. The fact that we got to bond and actually become close friends makes me really happy. You were a huge emotional support for me during the first part of the game when I was involved in a poisonous and horrendous relationship that was turning me into an awful person.

I never got to thank you, but I am forever grateful to you, because if it wasn't for you, I would have never gotten out of that relationship that was poisoning me to my very core. I cannot express how thankful I am for your advice and your guidance through that part of my life, not directly related to the game.

When it comes to the game, I think we never really saw eye to eye. I think you saw me as someone naive who would do your bidding, and by doing so you basically ruined my game, if we had not had a swap I would have been gone. I think that our relationship game-wise was very one-sided when it came to trust, I trusted you a lot and you never fully trusted my advice which had you followed I have no doubt in my mind you would be here today.

You played a great game though, just wish you had been able to follow as much as you tried to lead. Then perhaps things would have been different. But regardless I am glad we can come out of this game as good friends.

[knox]

Wendy... you are such an interesting person to me. You are by far the biggest wildcard in the game and you making it as far as you did I think surprised a lot of people.

You are the person who, I believe, is the one time that I might have lied in the whole game. I still remember the most awkward G-Hang session in my live when you were on the subway and walking around. And then half-way through it we found out that Ben was immune and me and AJ just wanted to bolt, because we didn't want to have to lie to you now that you were the vote.

I am also sorry that you thought blindsiding me was your plan, I saw that PM you sent everyone and I still giggle thinking about it. I was the one who planned my own blindside. At that point people were so scared of an idol, that I took the bull by the horns and told everyone to tell you that we were dividing the votes between me and Ellen. And somehow you thought it was your idea. Sorry.

Anyways, you are hilarious, and random and it was nice playing with you. And it was even nicer that you helped us get what we wanted by refusing to do what Ellen offered you. Had you done that then I probably wouldn't be here at all. So, thank you, believe it or not your boot probably defined a huge part of the game.

[knox]

Michael, I really enjoyed getting to know you in this game. I am sad that you were so close, and yet so far to making the merge. You were always super nice to me and you knew how to carry a conversation.

I admire the fact that you played the game fair and didn't want to share things when it would have guaranteed you immunity. Your integrity was probably your downfall, but at least you can hold your head high and know that you did the right thing.

Good game, bro!

[knox]

Oh boy... this is a hard one. Mark, I absolutely adore you, I am forever thankful of the bond we created during Season 5 and how it could continue on this season. I never thought someone like you and someone like me could become as close as we did, but I am happy to find out otherwise.

You are an absolutely fantastic player and a human being. I wish we had gotten to play together like we wanted to so bad, I was completely down for a Final 3 with you and Hannah. I wish that it had happened.

It honestly broke my heart when you and Gloria went head to head because I didn't want to take a side as I respect and care for you both so much.

The way you went home was awful, but I think considering everything going on for you, it might have been for the best. I am still sad and I think you went way before your time. Thanks for always believing in me and the friendship you offered me, you are a stand up guy and I wish you and your family nothing but the best.

[knox]

This is a hard one for me, because I respect you so much but I feel like the it is not mutual at all.

My biggest regret by far is voting for you the round that Hannah left. I think we were forming such a genuine and good friendship and I kind of cut it short. I should have followed my instincts and voted Selena even if Hannah would have went either way. But nothing I can do now, I suppose.

I enjoyed our conversations and I am sorry I hurt you when you put so much trust on me. You are a cool dude, and I hope one day you will fully forgive me.

[knox]

Selena.... wow, we had our ups and downs in this game, mostly downs, it seems. In reality for the majority of the game I was angry at you for lying about the Hannah vote, I still think it was unnecessary as there was nothing we could have done. But that is in the past, we have buried the hatchet and moved on.

In all honesty, out of all the people here I think you are the one which made the biggest change in me happen. The round that you called me a bully, and after calling me fat I was ready to quit. But then after talking with some people I got my game back and I decided that I will take that and turn it.

The fact that I was being perceived as a bully, something I had promised myself a long time ago I would never do again, made me be more aware of the way I was coming across. If it wasn't for you I would have never realized how wrong I was and I would have never been inspired to change into a better person.

So, thank you for that. And once again I am sorry for all that went down, I am glad we got to talk about it and squash the beef before it was too late.

[knox]

Colleen, we never got to talk too much. But from the one time we did talk I thought you were great. In all honesty I was beyond happy to be able to talk sports with someone who didn't just give me a WTF face.

[knox]

The Queen!

Honestly Ellen, you were by far the strongest player coming into this game. You were the biggest threat by a mile, not only challenge-wise, but strategically and socially. You are a well-rounded player which is what made you so scary. The fact that you went out the first round you were not immune shows just how amazing and threatening you were.

I enjoyed getting to know you, you are an amazing woman. I knew about your plots and plans though, because Gloria had told me before the game started about your pre-alliance with her, Luca and Dom, so I was always aware of where I would stand if I sided with you and that didn't seem smart for me at all.

Our relationship was genuine than most though, I love the fact that we were able to talk despite knowing we were gunning for each other and we were on different sides. As well as seeing it with humor how the game was shaping up, you always kept a positive attitude and had a classy-as-fuck exit. Thank you for all that you brought to the game!

[knox]

It's funny to me, because I remember a time when you and I used to be a lot closer. I used to call you AnimalGoddess, and I remember the time I stood up for you during another game when someone made you want to quit due to homophobic comments and disgusting behavior.

I don't know when we stopped being friends, but I know this game we barely talked and when we did it was forced and just not genuine, which made me sad.

I honestly deemed you as a huge threat because I heard from multiple sources that you were talking behind my back, making up stuff about me, and especially after a skype call which I thought was purely friendly you tried to twist that into me and AJ trying to become chummy and get in with your side.

In a way, I think I resented the way you seemed to keep slamming my game and trying to make other of the people on my side bad about their decisions. I think you are a lovely person, and I miss the friendship we used to have, but I guess people grow up and grow apart. I don't know what else I can say...