Post by Cassie Goldsmith on Jul 19, 2013 11:46:55 GMT -5
It's hard not to take this game personally. We came into this game basically knowing each other beforehand. So then everything seems more personal when relationships were built before the game began. I know that Dominic is really mad at me for things I've said. For some reason, Knox told Dominic some of the things I said to everyone in our alliance in a Google Hangout. It was kind of a lame thing for him to do, and now Dominic has somewhat of a personal vendetta against me in this game. It's weird coming into this game and having "enemies". In my previous two seasons, I didn't really have votes cast against me. In season 1, the only vote cast against me was in the final 3 when I was voted out. In season 3, I made it to the final 2 without any votes cast against me. It's a rough feeling seeing your name come up in Judgement. Especially with comments like, "I may not win this game, but neither are you." It's hard to take those things with a grain of salt. Of course there is not much about my gameplay I can brag about this season, but I don't think many people can brag about their gameplay this season. This season has developed into a battle between two sides, and there has not been much magnificence shown in the battlefield. I feel like Henry, who has not ruffled any feathers and played a pretty fantastic UTR game thus far, is the only one who can really brag about the way he has played this game. Everyone else is on somewhat of an even playing field in my eyes.
So our alliance was in a chatroom trying to discuss the vote. I mentioned something about splitting the vote. No one really acknowledged it. Then 2 minutes later Henry was like, "Okay, well I have an idea. Hear it out before you shoot it down." And he brought up splitting the vote. Then everyone listened.
Lol but that's okay. Splitting the vote this round doesn't guarantee safety whatsoever. However, the other side didn't vote together last round, and it is very possible that they will not vote together this round. We all seem to think that the hidden immunity idol has not been found yet. Morgan's comment at the challenge made it seem like it hasn't been found. Besides, we suspected that it wasn't found anyway and that the other side used up all their guesses. We could be wrong, but we all agreed (maybe besides Thiago) that we wanted to risk voting against Ellen this time around. Thiago is right about Ellen possibly having the idol. However, keeping Ellen this round is just as big of a risk as voting against her this round. The vote split is just an extra layer of protection in case those three do not vote together and Ellen plays an idol. Gosh, I wish we would've voted out Ben last round. Him leaving after giving away immunity would've been glorious. I actually pushed to vote for him, but we all sort of settled for voting for Colleen. I will feel bad if Ellen leaves this round, but she's entered this game and been immune every single round one way or another. She's made it to this point by winning individual immunity and finding hidden immunity idols. I'm not saying she doesn't deserve to be here, but she knows that winning and winning isn't the best way to get to the end. However, that being said, she did not deserve all of the personal crap that she had to go through over the course of this game. It's been somewhat vile and disgusting some of the things that have been said. Perhaps I should have stayed up for her more, but the lines were drawn pretty early on in this game. I really hope AJ and Ellen can talk and clear the air when this game is over. I think AJ needs to realize that some of the things she has said about Ellen have been somewhat out of line. Of course Ellen isn't completely innocent of this...none of us are. And many of the "middle men" can be blamed for perpetuating the drama more than it needed to be. If Ellen does leave this round, it will be the end of a season-long rivalry that I wish never would have came into existence. Some people referred to it as a true battle between good and evil. However, I think the lines between "good" and "evil" have been blurred over the entire course of this game. No one is innocent. We are all to blame.
With that being said, the game is not over whatsoever. While it is more likely for 3 people from my alliance to make it to the final 3, it is still possible for Ellen, Dominic, and Ben to pull somewhat of a coup and surprise everyone. I'm not going to let myself feel overconfident just yet. After all, I could very well be idoled out at this Judgement. This game is still far from predictable. There's still a lot of game left, and we can't count our chickens just yet.
I thought I'd feel horrible voting her out. Now I don't. Goodbye, Ellen. I hope that we can clear the air for real when the game is through. But now you can't victimize yourself for this game being personal against you. It's all personal. We are all feeling the effects of how hard this game is. It's a struggle for all of us. We're all fighting just to get through it.