Post by Dominic on Jul 19, 2013 1:19:24 GMT -5
I can sum up this round in one word: headache.
After losing Colleen, the rest of us are in major crisis mode. Ben obviously feels bad because he lost a friend and probably number one ally and Ellen feels awful about her choice to play the HII on herself once again. As much as we all tried to convince Ellen that there was no way she was getting votes this round, she was just too nervous and ended up buckling under pressure. I understand the fear, but after seeing what Ben did with his immunity, you would think that she would open her eyes and talk herself into doing something selfless to better our position in the game. Regardless, it happened and we are lower than ever. Nothing else to do now besides move on and try to crush this game with the few people we have left. I definitely think we're all capable of achieving greatness, so you can't count us out just yet.
We've been idol hunting like crazy, but the clues we have just make no sense to us tbh. I feel like I've just been staring at a map of Italy for the last few days and I'm completely over it. I quickly realize that there's no way in hell I'm going to find this idol so only hope towards staying in this game lies with an immunity win this round. It was pretty much do-or-die for me, so I did what I usually do in situations like this... I pulled out a mother fucking win. To say that I was excited about this was definitely an understatement. I have worked so fucking hard and put so much effort into this game that I just wasn't down for accepting 8th place... at all. I kinda feel bad because this pretty much seals Ellen's fate unless she somehow manages to find the idol... but I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not here to win this game for Ellen (that was Season 3, okay).
I'm not about to fall back into playing other people's games. When All Stars began, I was independently calling all of the shots and we ended up doing amazing. Since I've let others have input, we have lost control of this game. Luca was the one that decided to switch the vote to Thiago at the last minute, resulting in his elimination from the game. I was convinced by Ben and Ellen to use my HII on Ben the round Selena left, despite wanting to use it on Selena. Then last round, I wanted the idol used on Colleen but was once again ignored. Well, the days of being pushed aside are definitely over. If I go out, I want it to be because of a decision that I made, not by following others. It worked great for me in the beginning of the game so I'm bringing it back. Don't get me wrong... I absolutely love Ben and Ellen and I wish I could go to finals with them. We've all worked so hard and overcame so much to be here, but let's face it... We are at the end of our ropes and something has got to be done if any of us have a chance.
This round, I think we'll be losing Ellen. It's going to be a major hit for me, sure, but I feel like her choice in how to play the HII last round is what ultimately did her in. I don't really think she deserves to leave this early, but it's definitely a testament to her abilities as a player and she's going to be a legend regardless. I've had a lot of thoughts lately focusing on "what ifs" regarding this game. I could've very easily stuck with Chase/Mark/AJ and probably be sitting in a great spot right now. My downfall in this game will definitely be as a result of choosing Ellen's side once again, but at the same time I don't regret it one bit. As much as I can try to play with just my head, I can't ignore what my heart screams at me. The beginning of the game showed Ellen in a very vulnerable position and my heart went out to her. To be targeted just because you care about a game is just mean-spirited in my opinion and I have absolutely loved helping Ellen ascend the placement ladder and rise above so many people that wanted to take her out early. Regardless of what happens tomorrow night with the votes, Ellen played an excellent game and no one can take that away from her.
Moving forward in this game, the only way I can guarantee my spot in the finals is to take it for myself. I can't count on anyone from the five-some flipping because WHY THE HELL WOULD THEY LOL. I want to be able to count on Ben, but I feel like he's already kinda wiggled himself into a 6th place deal with them or something. Even if not and he's completely innocent, they wouldn't vote to keep me in this game over Ben because I have the potential to win competitions. Sigh. There are four more immunity challenges in between me and the Good and Evil: All Stars Finale. If I can somehow pull this off and get there, then I will be absolutely thrilled. I'm aware this is a long-shot, but this is my last chance and trust me when I say I'm going to do absolutely everything I can to achieve this.
After losing Colleen, the rest of us are in major crisis mode. Ben obviously feels bad because he lost a friend and probably number one ally and Ellen feels awful about her choice to play the HII on herself once again. As much as we all tried to convince Ellen that there was no way she was getting votes this round, she was just too nervous and ended up buckling under pressure. I understand the fear, but after seeing what Ben did with his immunity, you would think that she would open her eyes and talk herself into doing something selfless to better our position in the game. Regardless, it happened and we are lower than ever. Nothing else to do now besides move on and try to crush this game with the few people we have left. I definitely think we're all capable of achieving greatness, so you can't count us out just yet.
We've been idol hunting like crazy, but the clues we have just make no sense to us tbh. I feel like I've just been staring at a map of Italy for the last few days and I'm completely over it. I quickly realize that there's no way in hell I'm going to find this idol so only hope towards staying in this game lies with an immunity win this round. It was pretty much do-or-die for me, so I did what I usually do in situations like this... I pulled out a mother fucking win. To say that I was excited about this was definitely an understatement. I have worked so fucking hard and put so much effort into this game that I just wasn't down for accepting 8th place... at all. I kinda feel bad because this pretty much seals Ellen's fate unless she somehow manages to find the idol... but I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not here to win this game for Ellen (that was Season 3, okay).
I'm not about to fall back into playing other people's games. When All Stars began, I was independently calling all of the shots and we ended up doing amazing. Since I've let others have input, we have lost control of this game. Luca was the one that decided to switch the vote to Thiago at the last minute, resulting in his elimination from the game. I was convinced by Ben and Ellen to use my HII on Ben the round Selena left, despite wanting to use it on Selena. Then last round, I wanted the idol used on Colleen but was once again ignored. Well, the days of being pushed aside are definitely over. If I go out, I want it to be because of a decision that I made, not by following others. It worked great for me in the beginning of the game so I'm bringing it back. Don't get me wrong... I absolutely love Ben and Ellen and I wish I could go to finals with them. We've all worked so hard and overcame so much to be here, but let's face it... We are at the end of our ropes and something has got to be done if any of us have a chance.
This round, I think we'll be losing Ellen. It's going to be a major hit for me, sure, but I feel like her choice in how to play the HII last round is what ultimately did her in. I don't really think she deserves to leave this early, but it's definitely a testament to her abilities as a player and she's going to be a legend regardless. I've had a lot of thoughts lately focusing on "what ifs" regarding this game. I could've very easily stuck with Chase/Mark/AJ and probably be sitting in a great spot right now. My downfall in this game will definitely be as a result of choosing Ellen's side once again, but at the same time I don't regret it one bit. As much as I can try to play with just my head, I can't ignore what my heart screams at me. The beginning of the game showed Ellen in a very vulnerable position and my heart went out to her. To be targeted just because you care about a game is just mean-spirited in my opinion and I have absolutely loved helping Ellen ascend the placement ladder and rise above so many people that wanted to take her out early. Regardless of what happens tomorrow night with the votes, Ellen played an excellent game and no one can take that away from her.
Moving forward in this game, the only way I can guarantee my spot in the finals is to take it for myself. I can't count on anyone from the five-some flipping because WHY THE HELL WOULD THEY LOL. I want to be able to count on Ben, but I feel like he's already kinda wiggled himself into a 6th place deal with them or something. Even if not and he's completely innocent, they wouldn't vote to keep me in this game over Ben because I have the potential to win competitions. Sigh. There are four more immunity challenges in between me and the Good and Evil: All Stars Finale. If I can somehow pull this off and get there, then I will be absolutely thrilled. I'm aware this is a long-shot, but this is my last chance and trust me when I say I'm going to do absolutely everything I can to achieve this.
