Annie's Abundant Adventures in Archiving Analytics

[chad]

tldr

[annie]

i read all your giant ass confessionals in gvse5 and those were some of the most rambling things i've ever seen. :l

[yarik]

Best of luck Annie

[annie]

Thank you Levine!

[yarik]

Yarik Levine lol. Who were you in starz :X Should I know this...

[yarik]

Jun 16, 2013 14:41:59 GMT -5 annie said:

NVM I figured it out!

[annie]

ROUND [002] — HAVE A NICE DAY

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Well, round one went by way too quickly with some highly disliked results. I am sure the viewers are just as torn and upset over Emily's departure from this realm as I am. When two people outlast an entire people group till the end of the world together, it really solidifies them, and my rock and my strong tower has now crumbled, my foundation has cracked, and I'm left to gather the scattered pieces and try to reassemble what's left of Emily's fortress of a persona or fend for myself, and sadly it's looking like the latter is the only option.

I honestly knew that either Emily or myself would be the first boots no matter what happened. I was just hoping it would be me. I could never wish anything bad upon her, and if you remember I wanted her to be the winner if not me almost a year ago. Nothing has changed in our relationship. But now she's dead and I'm alone and everything we've built since mankind fell has been lost and rattled and I feel like a small child craving his mother, and I just wanna bang on the walls and scream and cry and pout and tear everything in mind to shreds. Everything about me hurts.

And that's exactly why I can't fall short this time. I had nothing to fight for last time. I was just capable and managed to make what I did best - fade into the background - work to my advantage. I had no purpose to fight then. Now the stakes are different. I have to avenge her death if it's the last thing I do. (watch me get the boot this round just for saying that :l) There is nothing that would stop me from winning this game entirely for Emily's sake. Truth be told, Annie Whitaker is hysterically in love with her.. or, was hysterically in love with her, until she passed on.

I still am not over it.

I really am not sure how I can go on without her there to keep me level and steady and calm and help me think everything through.

I need her.

I'm seriously addicted to her like she's cocaine, except this paining, itching burn to snort again doesn't ware away after a couple days. This is everlasting, but it helps ignite the fire beneath my wings.

This goddess is about to take off.

I'm not playing anyone's game. I'm not going to be anyone's pocket vote or background dancer. This is my show and I'm the star, hands down. Everyone else is just a backup singer. They help make the harmonies, keep the melodies flowing. I orchestrate and get the solos. This is my game.

And nobody's stopping me.






So. In order to properly set myself up to win this damned game for Emily, I've worked hard to set up as many connections as I can. I've tried to be as amiable as possible with everyone, and even when I'm being plastic I haven't appeared fake. I plaster on a glimmering grin and car salesman my way into hearts of losers. Losers like me.

What's sad is that I've already had to mentally sever so many ties I came into this game with. Luca, who many assumed was a pregame ally of mine, is dead to me. I have nothing to do with him and want nothing to do with him. He could have easily told me he was voting Emily and wanted to vote Emily last round, but he beat around the bush and acted like he just really wanted Perry out. I've known him far too long. I mean, I fucking told me to apply for the game. I know him well. Too well. More than well enough to know when he's lying through his teeth. And that, my friends, he was. If he wanted to save Emily, he easily could have. He didn't want to save Emily. He wanted to cut my ties to others, just like so many people have already voiced with me.. Luca probably did this in hopes that, with my only other best friend gone, I'd be all his for the keeping. Sorry buddy but your plan worked to the opposite effect. I'm farther from you than ever. I'm so glad I'm not on your tribe so I don't have to vote you out myself. But if I have to, oh you better believe I am going to.

The problem with that is that nobody would tell me they were gonna vote him, since from any past forum they would have seen our wondrous friendship. Well, in this game, that friendship is no more. Annie is not in the business of denying herself simple pleasures in life, and working with Luca would be denying herself of her right to avenge Emily entirely.

No one who laid a vote on Emily will be winning this game if I have anything to do about it. Remember that.

Ugh. Really, guys, I am devastated. I cannot even begin to understand my feelings.

Ugh. Just so done with Luca's fakeness.

Back on my tribe...
I tire easily of Dominic's holier-than-thou mentality. I don't realize if he even knows he acts this way, but he treats people like children when he tells them something, and it's very (unintentionally) condescending and disheartening. It makes it hard to work with him, even though at the moment he's my number 1 ally.

Gloria gets more and more reserved and difficult to talk to as the days go by. I think the hot sun is really breaking her apart. She seems to be ripping at the seams. Ready for a blowout any day now.

Mark has grown a thicker, more homeless looking beard, but he's also opened up to me more. I really genuinely like Mark, and hope that somehow we can make something work between us.

Michael is another huge fan of Emily, and he's honest enough to tell me he trusted Emily most of anyone in the game (over me.. of course that does make me wary that Emily preferred people over me, but we do try to do our own thing sometimes, shown by my f2 with Dominic.) We are holding a funeral for her since we didn't get to attend her actual death.

Wendy. Is so weird. IDK what happened to her since gvse2, but she is not the same spunky girl I remember. I kept her around for being so cute and friendly, but she is very distant and uneasy to talk to. Something's going on. I just don't know what yet.

Then there's Ben. Probably one of my least favorite people in the cast and he knows it. We just.. aren't compatible. In the slightest. And it shows. Oh, does it show. He is so short and fake with me, that it is almost insulting that he doesn't put more effort into our conversations. Oh well. It'll be shame when he isn't first boot of our tribe.

But hopefully our tribe just never has to attend Judgment and we keep on dominating challenge-wise. That's preferable.



AJ is one of the people I am closest to cross-tribe.. She is a beautiful person inside and out, and she's the perfect hero to offset my likely villainess. Especially with my Dexter avenge Emily and kill the wrong-doers mentality. CPM all over since it's all for a good purpose?

I really want to work with AJ and I'm gonna feel like shit if I ever have to break her heart, but I warned her it was likely to happen and she seemed just fine to keep working with me, so that's just lovely. <3

In this game, I don't see Cassie and I or Colleen and I coming together whatsoever. So that discussion is over.

I am loving Chase very much. I've opened up to him about things, and we discussed a lot of sex topics which just obviously inclines me to speak to him more. That's a relationship to watch it for because it just might grow in the duration of this game.

Henry. My oh my. Is there potential for us to unite to avenge Emily? I hope so. He's such a challenge dominator that having him on my side would one) keep the target off me and two) help me stay safe. I do love him and respect his gameplay but I am wary of him possibly not wanting to repeat season 2.

Quincy. I have an F2 with him called Q&A and it's apparently his one legitimate F2 but I'm sure he told everyone that. I must have made this with him when I was drunk because I don't remember it, but I love the name and I love the people in it (myself and Quincy <3) so I have no problem with it. This does hold water, and until Q gives me a reason to distrust him (which he probably will as he always does) I do plan to honor this alliance.

Thiago. Such a standup guy. Love every second of his existence and I wish I caught him on more often. He's so friendly and funny and we just click and mesh so damn well. If he feels otherwise I'll seriously be upset, but I'm sure he thinks I'm being fake with him when I'm seriously not. I'm one of his biggest fangirls and he deserves every ounce of my attention. Keep rocking, T <3

Really isn't much to talk about on Emily's old tribe. Already discussed Luca and the rest are pretty dry. Hannah, maybe. We'll see.

More to you when I finish helping Dominic with finding challenge words. I've written over 1600 words and that's entirely too much. Somebody stop this from becoming a trend.

Rice Queen out.

[annie]

Well. This round is going much better than I expected.

I actually was hoping we'd lose the challenge, because there is something I desperately need to do in order to better my own position in this game and also to make our tribe more whole and powerful.

The thing I need to do is vote out Ben.

I really did expect this job to be much harder than it actually was. It took about twenty minutes and I had locked in every tribe member to vote out Ben, one of the biggest social threats and challenge dominators in past seasons. Luckily for me, he hasn't been around hardly at all. Some people haven't even talked to him once and the game has been going on for far too long for that kinda behavior. I understand he is busy with work but if you know you'll have no time to dedicate, don't sign up. There were other people who wanted and deserved a spot and they would have been active for it, too.

Now, this move isn't made to avenge my love, but it can at some point open up more bridges to cross that can help me fulfill those goals. Cutting Ben now opens up Colleen exponentially, and Colleen has sway like no other. Her amount of influence if insurmountable. She's top class, and that fiesty Australian being on my side definitely raises my chances of avenging Emily.

Two, Ben had one of the biggest and best games of last season (although I was not a fan of his a single minute of the entire season because I hate the way he plays and his cockiness, but I digress) so taking up out now stops him from tearing the game apart near the end. He is quite capable and a force to be reckoned with, so it's better to make this move now than later when it is too late.

Of course, I really really thought this would be a hard move to make. I didn't realize I could tell my tribe to do something and they'd be like sure thing! Even Gloria wasn't going to stick out her neck to save him. Unless they are all planning to blindside me, which would be cruel and unwarranted, this round has gone perfectly and exactly how I dictated. The best part is no one seems to see me as the leader of this vote, when that's entirely the case. Everyone was being a pussy about namedropping because ooo no one wants to be the first to say someone's name!! so scaryyyy! so I took the reigns in my hands and whipped my reindeer into action. This chick led the vote and didn't get any damage done to her.

The only way I can see this backfiring is if Gloria or Ben somehow find the idol and play it. In that case, I might be toast, though Gloria told me she wasn't voting me for or Mark or Dom no matter what, so maybe not.. or maybe she'll have him play it but still vote in majority so it doesn't look like she betrayed me.

If I am voted out, it would be a stupid move. I've done nothing to hurt anyone yet, and I helped in the challenges (a lot of Dom's things came from me on AIM, but I was mobile so couldn't make the images.) I really would hate being voted out now. It would just make no sense but at least I'd be with Emily. <3

So, yeah. Flip my hair, I managed to get everyone to turn against someone who almost my entire tribe was friends with in a matter of twenty minutes without taking any blame for it. I count that as a successful afternoon. Now to suntan. Things are getting a little dry anyway. Maybe it'll rain soon. Monsoon season, preferably. Wanna go swimming.

Also, Dominic is already getting some really bad B.O. I guess because he's black. It's miserable, but he's my closest ally so I can't do much about it. Would it kill ya to give us some deodorant, God?

[annie]

Also, Dominic and I are gonna be the new Henry and Ellen.

We're gonna be the new Hellen.

So Justin will like us and see we are such heroes

[annie]

Ben just sent me a PM. OH SO HE FINALLY WANTS TO TALK TO ME HUH. He's been IMing Dom for an hour or so now. But not me? Okay. See if I change my vote to save you. Which I easily could get everyone to change their votes. But I won't, because Wendy is adorable and NO MORE S2 EVICTIONS PLEASE. At least not right now. That can't become a trend.

Sorz not sor Ben. Bai2U.

[reese]

You are so unbelievably fab. <3

[annie]

I don't wanna be that person that makes a confessional before every judgment saying I think it's me but...


Everyone is being really short with me, and it's getting shady. IDK. I think I may be toast. Which would be quite the sad ending to my storyline. I'd get no story at all, really. It would just... no.

This is not how my story should end. I really hope it isn't me, but the way people are talking, idk. I hate this feeling.

I guess I deserve it for being ~such a villain~ but whatever. Here's to hoping I don't die tonight.