AJ Remembers the Fallen

[aj]

One of the main reasons I was excited for this game was because I was going to get to play with you. But based on your actions in the early portion of this game, I came to the conclusion that you didn’t feel the same way. And I’m sorry if that was a misconception on my part. Regardless of whether we were aligned or not, getting to play with you was definitely an honor. You brought something to the table every round, whether it was some master strategic plan or just winning immunity. You have this emotional effect on me that no one else has, due to how much I love and care about you outside of this game. However, it also makes my perception of the game very difficult at times. I know that you don’t agree with some of my decisions, and I really am sorry if you were hurt by anything I did. Just know that on a personal level I absolutely adore you, and our conversations mean a lot to me. I really treasure our friendship outside of this, and I don’t want it to end.

[aj]

It was an odd feeling voting you out last round, because I really looked at you as my mentor for a good portion of this game. You always gave me such a logical view of everything, and you were the one person who was able to cause me to put my emotions aside and look at situations rationally. Sometimes you would be saying things and I would just be thinking in my head, “Wow, I wish I were this smart.” I really learned a lot from you through this game, and I can’t tell you how happy it makes me that we got to work together. In my opinion, you really encapsulate all qualities of the perfect ORG player, which is why I had to vote you out this past round. Thank you so much for everything in this game, I know I couldn’t be here without you.

[aj]

Wow, I never would have guessed that we both would have made it this far. I’m so glad that we were able to make up for the time we lost together in season 3. We really work so well together and I’m very lucky to have an ally and a friend like you. We’ve been friends for so long and I don’t see that ending any time soon. I know this is short, but there honestly aren't words to describe how much you mean to me, and how even though we haven't met yet, you're one of my best friends. Can't wait until we're the first team eliminated off TAR someday!

[aj]

There have been times in this game that I’ve been really abnormally stressed and upset over things that I really shouldn’t be worried about. And through all those times, you’ve been there to lift my spirits back up and completely change my outlook on everything. You made me feel better on the worst day I had in a long time, and honestly, that’s something I will never forget; I can’t thank you enough for that. Your residents are so lucky to have an RA as warm and loving as you. I’m so glad that this game allowed us to reconnect. There’s never a conversation with you that I don’t enjoy, and I can’t wait to continue those after the game. You’ve been such a great friend to me throughout this whole game and I couldn’t be happier that we got to make it this far together. I love you!!

[aj]

When I saw you were on my tribe at the beginning of this game, all I could think of was how scared I was. Your flawless season 5 performance clouded my entire perception of you. And as I started to talk to you and realized how much I liked you, I just was thinking “oh no, his magic is working on me already.” But as the game went on, I started to trust you more and more, and as it turned out, it was extremely rewarding, as I feel like we've developed a really special friendship. You've helped me in this game so much, and your genuine care for my life really means the world to me. One of my favorite things about you is how open you are about sharing things in your life with me, I find that extremely touching. This past week in particular, you have really shown me what a great friend you are, and I really can’t thank you enough for that. That other morning I was really having a rough time, and I don't know what I would have done if you weren't online then to talk me through it. You’re selfless, understanding, and a great listener and I’m just really glad to have become friends with you through all this.

[aj]

Wow. I know everyone says it, but I NEVER thought I would make it this far in the game. And it's actually really humbling to have made it to this point. I came into this game, surely perceived as the “sweetheart” who blindly followed Ryan through season 3 until she decided to discard me. Although she is in the final 4 with me here, I hope that I have showed that I am capable of more than just being her goat.

Today is day 43 of this game, and I can’t tell if it feels like longer or shorter than that. This whole game has been a rollercoaster; I’ve had high moments, low moments, and everything in between. The hardest part about this game for me was having to choose between my head and my heart. My genuine love and care for so many people in this game made for times where it was extremely hard for me to think strategically.

I know this game has really gotten personal, so I just want to say that I am sorry if I have hurt anyone in this game on a personal level in any way. I really have no hard feelings for anyone here. In the heat of the game, we all say and do things that might not be our normal selves. My favorite part about ORG’s is without a doubt meeting so many people, and all I really want is for those relationships I’ve made to continue after this game is over.